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May 31, 2004 COLOURED.




some article from the net...

Why Piercing Guns Should be Banned
Piercing guns have been used for years in mall and department stores for piercing people of all ages. Today, though, professional body piercers want to see the gun banned. Why?
I talked to a lady (who shall remain nameless) who works in a jewelry boutique at a local mall. She said that she has been doing piercings there now for about 6 months. Her "training" took all of 2 weeks, which consisted of watching others and practicing on a teddy bear. (huh?) Although she claims that in the time she has been piercing she has only gotten one complaint, that does not mean this procedure is entirely safe.

The first concern when it comes to piercing is sterilization. Any kind of procedure which involves contact with blood or bodily fluids requires strict adherence to cross-contamination prevention. Piercing guns are usually made with plastic and cannot be sterilized in an autoclave. Sure, they wipe it with alcohol or antiseptic in between uses, but how sterile is that? It is not unfair to conclude that in a 2-week training course, these mall piercists are not being taught about infection control and blood-borne pathogens. A quick wipe with a sterile pad is not effective in removing disease-carrying blood.

Some will argue that the piercing gun never comes in contact directly with the customer's skin. This might be true, but the piercers hands do - if they touch the customers skin and then touch the gun, the gun is now contaminated. Period. And when the gun drives the stud through the flesh, if the skin starts to bleed there is no way of knowing whether or not tiny particles of blood could have been dispersed into the air contaminating everything around it.

Sterility is just one of the possible problems with gun piercing. Tissue trauma is another. The gun forces a blunt stud through the skin, causing it to literally rip in order to make room for the jewelry. Then, it pinches the back of the jewelry in place snugly against the skin, allowing no way for the new wound to breathe and heal properly. The customer is then told to turn the jewelry a couple times a day, which only further pushes growing bacteria into the wound, causing infection.

True, many customers get pierced with guns and never have any problems with it. But why put yourself at risk when there is a safer, less painful way to go about it?

Why the Needle is So Much Better
In comparison to the two-week training of the mall piercer, a professional body piercer goes through extensive training that can last as much as two or three years. They learn about the human body and how piercings affect the circulatory system. They learn how to avoid hitting nerves that can cause severe pain to the customer. Most importantly, they learn about cross-contamanation prevention and how to properly sterilize their instruments. Anything that touches the customer that cannot be autoclaved is thrown away immediately. Work stations are fully disinfected before and after every piercing procedure.

The piercing process itself is also much safer and less painful than having a blunt stud forced through your skin. A piercing needle is actually hollow and extremely sharp. It slices through the skin, safely pushing the tissue aside to make room for the jewelry to be inserted. That may not sound too appealing, but it is actually a very quick process and the method is virtually painless for most body parts.

The jewelry that is used in professional piercing shops is also much better for you. Barbells and Captive Beads Rings are specially designed to allow removal of dirt and bacteria effectively during the healing process. Allowing for full movement of the jewelry makes it much easier for you to clean it without counter-productively pushing more bacteria into the pierce. The metals that are used in this jewelry are also better for your skin and less likely to cause a reaction. High-grade Surgical Stainless Steel and even Titanium (which is virtually nickel-free) give you the best chances of an infection and reaction-free piercing.

Although it is true that professional piercing prices run higher than those performed in mall stores, why put a price on your safety and well-being? The quality and personalized service you receive by going to a professional are certainly worth a few extra dollars. These trained professionals are also happy to follow up with you should you have any questions or complications. Your mall piercer might offer their opinion on how to treat an infection, but who do you think will be more qualified to help you? The answer is obvious.

[intermission]

i have never seen anyone used needles before...
mine was all done using the piercing gun...
ya, its was done in a mall kiosk too.. :D
except for my first 2 which was done in yellow...
77th street expensive tt time loh...

good advice for anyone interested to get ear piercings...
too bad i dun intend to add more to my existing collection...
and mind u, barbells look nicer than studs after all...
studs only used when piercing gun is used...
u only get to see the needle in some professional shop...

u cant trust the ppl from the kiosks much realli...
see the report about practising on teddy bears???
we are their teddy bears, nice to cuddle and all...
but it feels good to be pierced by girls...
guys not gentle enough to handle it...

what if i never saw u again
i'll die right next to u in the end
that place in my mind
is that space that u call mine

4:06 PM



the dude everyone hates...
but some seems to love him...

everyone give it up for .... william hung...

some ppl actually want to marry him...

geesh, i hope its not BoA....

12:52 AM

May 30, 2004 COLOURED.



movies movies movies...

its been quite some time since i have restocked on movies...
considering that i always dun have space...
and busy finishing anime...
with anime out of the picture currently...
i can afford to start getting movies again...

and i realised i have alot that i want to get leh...
bad part is the movies i have right now i still haben watch yet leh...
currently on my queue list...

  • elephant
  • female prisoner #701 scorpion
  • love me if u dare
  • kids
  • ju-on
  • ju-on2
  • master and commander
  • the guru
still got some more i haben queue yet...
must clear some old movies first then can continue...

3:30 PM



Now Playing :: A Perfect Circle - 3 Libras ::

this band sounds completely different from the rest...
it has a lot to do with the vox
the guy from tool, maynard james sth...
he has a kinda spiritual voice...
can go be some preacher or something... :D


2:44 AM

May 29, 2004 COLOURED.



the real devil who inspires...
u can't win anything if u are not hot-headed enough...
so alan smith is a great buy...
considering the number of red cards he has...
soft guys dun deserve a place in man united!

it helps if u can come up with some shit to prove that u are a genius...

"When the seagulls follow the trawler, it's because they think that sardines will be thrown into the sea"
eric cantona said that after he went to court over the kungfu kick at fan incident...

everyone was going gaga...
like wow, such a cheem man...
and they were in love with his profoundness...
until he explained what it realli meant...

"My lawyer and the officials wanted me to speak. So I just said that. It was nothing, it did not mean anything. I could have said 'The curtains are pink but I love them'"
see that? genius are usually idiots...
who splurts anything out from their mouth without thinking...
there is no logic, no meaning to it...
but ppl like to make it sound like he was some cheem person...

i feel exactly the same way with artists...
duno wat the shit they are throwing paint around and calling it art...
to me it warrants a fail in any art class...
to ppl who spent hours "admiring" it...
they call it a genius...
if u dun understand then say dun understand loh...
dun act cute say a dumb man until like so smart like that...

if cantona was smart, he wouldnt kick the fan in the first place...
he just has a football brain, that's all...


7:11 PM



seriously telling the truth, im not realli into anime...
but it feels weird to be left out in sch then...
everyone was talking about this about that...
and i duno a single thing about them...
it didnt help that i was still on dialup at tt time...

so i got jimmy to lend me some anime to start off with...
and this was the first one i ever watched...
lucky he got me this as a beginner course...
if he gives me any gundam i would have given up hope on anime liao...

the whole anime is about schools fighting each other...
too bad i didnt finished the whole series...
it was licensed quite fast...
ppl who dl anime should know wat happens when sth gets licensed...
no ppl is going to sub it and release for download...

weirdo these people...
if anime cannot let ppl download becos they are licensed...
then movies n music all that oso cannot be download liao loh...
duno why they so scared of wat...
too bad the trend which anime gets licensed...
is when there is fighting and gers in skimpy outfits...
other than that, the rest of anime always get away...
except for pokemon though...
i cant think of anything dirty about pokemon...
considering that the only gers are misty, jesse, the nurse, ash's mom...
unless they tink the pikachu n gang are gay!


6:04 PM



if u have seen this pic somewhere in this blog yesterday...
u must have seen the short-lived template...
looks nice initially...
but something doesn't feel right la...
end up i onli edit a bit of the current template...
will change everythng when i got the time...


11:07 AM

May 28, 2004 COLOURED.



fishie at red sea

are we wat we are meant to be on birth?
ppl with special talents attribute it as their natural talent...
i c ppl do futuristic design always like veri cool...
if only i have a designer brain...
c those sites always end up so jealous...
since im a leftie, im supposed to be artistically inclined...
so this is my first piece of art...
like shit, but who cares, everyone's di yi chi are always shitty...
a small step towards something better :D

anyway, i have found an act cute template liao...
can be seen sometime this weekend?
just a temp 1 though...
since it wun corporate the comments thing...
i dun know how to do it...
and i dun wan to use their templates...
stalling time when i can design a nice background for myself
this fishie at red sea might be a good start :D

see, im supposed to be sleeping right now...
but here i am again playing ard with the idea of photoblogging...


12:59 AM

May 27, 2004 COLOURED.



how can i ever be labelled a pervert huh!

although she didnt say it, her body language says it all...
i am as pure as snow okay...
dun go around giving me that kind of face...
as if she is going to be eaten by a big bad wolf...
feed to hyenas they oso dun wan loh...

what exactly happened

i was on the train...
sat 1 seat apart from her...
then 2 malay ppl wanted to sit...
since there are empty space on my left n right...
they requested me to shift to the left...
of cos ppl expect u to move...
u cant say i dun wan leh, not happy ar, da wo la...
n becos the 2 are quite big sized...
i came into contact wif tt siao woman...
not even within touching distance loh...
then i read newspaper the paper touch her..
then she glare at me like i did it on purpose...

please la, i dun wan to touch a yellow-faced auntie loh...
then becos i always placed my bag horizontally...
end up the bag oso brushed her...
then she dulan pushed my bag away...
again she thought i was trying to entice her...

i swear if my shoulder ever came into cotact wif hers...
she is going to scream molest anytime...
if u are so insecure, scared ppl touch touch, then dun wear so little la...
so old liao still duno wat is call modestly...
and i dun wan to look at saggy breasts anyway...

thank goodness my destination was just 2 stops...
any longer and i will report her to mental institute of health...

a well-mannered, bespectacled gentle man...
anyone look here look there...
oso know i am not tt kind of person rite...
so good-natured, so mild, cant even bare to step on an ant...
i am a good boy rite?
rite?
rite?
rite?
RITE!
:D

anyway, by the look of it...
i tink i have to blog more than once a day...
photoblogging sure is addictive...


10:43 PM



join the elite!

its funny how i ended up having this...
i hate ppl who go to gym in the past...
always felt why they so bo liao...
maybe its becos i c too much beer bellies...

i remember the first time i step inside a gym...
i was wif takumi tt time...
and we are like idiots, duno go where buy entrance...
forgot why we are even there in the first place...
anyway try try liao dun have any effects...

then i started to tag along wif bryant n toy for gym...
thats when i think i start to change...
they laugh when i couldnt lift their weights...
and i always complain of ache here ache there...
time flies and i got better and better each time...
it got up to a point where gym just becomes a routine thing u do...
dun have the sian la, dun wan to go leh tt pattern...
like somehow or rather u are accustomed to the nua-ness of the effects...
and it has become the give me pain, i love pain motto...
then its if no nua means sian, if nua then happy

anyway i got the membership becos it saves a lot of money leh...
and ppl treat u wif more respect...
the counter ppl always c ppl come in will sian sian...
but once they c u take out ur membership card...
their eyes brighten and they greet u wif smiles
like some bloody VIPs like that...
and gym users dun snigger at u anymore...
they all eyeing u like some dangerous creature like that...

now u c the difference between having cards and no cards...


1:05 AM

May 26, 2004 COLOURED.



3 things i remember from donnie darko

the girl (jena malone)...
the smurf theory...
and of cos this song...

::Gary Jules - Mad World::


4:49 PM

May 25, 2004 COLOURED.



MY TABLE, QUITE ARTISTIC HUH

now let me give u a guide of the items



my swimming accessories...
the professional speedo goggles...
banana boat suntan lotion when i get too white...
coppertone sunblock when i get too black...
and u wun believe that im using dove soap...
lol, yea its true, im using cream milk leh...
althougth i would much prefer dettol though...
dettol got the lemon smell more strong...

too bad u dun get to see my swimming trunks...
becos its too wet to be placed on my table...
but it would be quite a sight rite...
anyway my prized possession will make an appearance...
once i begin to enjoy the benefits of photoblogging...
but right now i find it bloody irritating...
becos u cannot publish many pictures on 1 post...
what i like is the FREE SPACE...
u can like post unlimited amount of pictures like tt...

actually this hello thing not bad leh...
u can upload pictures quite fast...
not quite fast, its VERY VERY FAST...
and its something like instant messaging like tt...
i reckon it will take over msn or aol or yahoo messenger soon...
esp for those photoholics and can live without smilie icons 1...
then if u add ur fren to ur list, u can view his or her pics...
n the pics are placed in a film strip pattern...
no more stupid manual change pic to let ppl see...
ur fren can browse ur pics by himself lor...

but right now i never add any people...
becos i duno got ppl using or not leh...
i onli use for publishing pics on blog...

anyway, back to my table...



my only nice medal left...
i used to have 1 when i was in primary sch...
i got silver for duno wat stupid race...
this one is the suay 4x100 relay run...
get bronze becos my retarded thinking :X



why would i have a handphone stand...
when i dun even own a handphone...
i struggle to find out the reason...
anyway i got it becos it was free...
and the bear looks kinda retard...
so i kinda pity it and took it home...



JOIN THE CLUB

it was a present given to me when i was sec 4...
i think that was the only birthday where i actually got gifts...
from that group of ppl i will never forget...
that is wat i call brotherhood...
give me wat pregnant lady cup...
give me wat 2 lubricated condoms in keychains...
give me wat house of humor dildo...
gers better dun buy them, it was spoilt within a week...
due to excessive use and experimentation with it...
but i am not the culprit la, its the same ppl who bought it...
play too much wif it and then it just died...
no more vibrations, no more sound, just dead...

it was pretty fitting for someone who was the pck chairman...
and every item has a big significance to it...
of cos since then i no longer get gifts...
birthdays to me are just like any other day...



i like this side view in particular...
nice curves, dun u tink...
now if onli we can push tt bulge in front higher a bit...
i think that would be perfect...



one whole stack of cds...
hellsing... one piece and duno wat else...
but they're not mine, im supposed to return them...



my travel necessities...
gers like to bring 1 big bag with duno wat...
i can leave wif just my key and my concession pass...
ya, i can make do without my wallet too...
becos it just means that i have to go home...
otherwise i will starve to death...



finally, this damn box that is in the background of many pics...
this is the spam box, sent to snail mail...
duno how they found out my name n address...
and some others oso got this ladbrokes gambling box as well...
lucky my mother duno wat is ladbrokes...
otherwise she will question me liao...
i never gamble they oso send me this thing...

thats about it la...
hope u enjoy a wonderful journey thru my table...
anyway if ur eyes are watchful enuf...
u will know i missed out on quite a number of items...
bo bian la, no batteries liao so cannot take pics...
and there are still some interesting things hidden under the cds...
so if u spot any interesting thing which was not brought up for comments...
feel free to request then i will go n take pics of it loh...
as if anyone so interested in my items like that...

i dun care my table messy or not...
even if i tidy up, sooner or later will end up the same...
sometimes my frens come over i oso heck care...
rather it is my mother who keeps nagging me...
clear this clear that, later ur fren come over c how...
thing is i dun like to put on a false front...
let them get used to the EEeeeeEEE side of me first...
then later clean it all up, then ppl will WWAaaaHH...
u know, the effects is much better...
than u keep making it neat everytime...
then they ask why the sudden change...
say i did it becos of u loh...
then they will like so touched wor...
hao gan dong wor, then cry cry cry...
okie, lame!

if u notice close enuf...
u may notice something...
when i took pic of item by item...
the table seems okay...
that was becos i did sth to it...
i did the yi ge da xi gua, qie chen yi ban, yi ban gey ni, yi ban gey ta...
in short i pushed everything to the left n right...
now it looks like the moses scene where he maek the waters split...

i will only appreciate how gd it is to be neat...
only when i go for ns time...
at least then i got more discipline to clean up...
right now no time for anything :D

now as per requested...
this special post of my table...
can u beat that huh!

8:14 PM



this is a testing post

testing out the new photo features provided by hello...
quite cheem, how come can onli 1 photo per post...
cannot many photos on a post 1...
so kiam siap sia, but maybe thats the way photoblogging works...
who the heck wans to see a site full of pictures anyway...
a pic a day keeps the pornoholics away~

4:24 AM


if i cant even survive a week, i am truly weak...
honestly speaking, i was struggling to keep up...
i have thoughts of lazing just for one day...
slacking is my forte without a doubt...
but i wouldnt be where i am today without the determination...
the more torture u take, the more enjoyable it seems...
lets take a recap of last week...

acid poured on my back on monday...
hardened body on tuesday...
hardened body on wednesday...
flu on thursday...
hot n cold on friday...
cough on saturday...
still coughing up til now...

i managed to keep up except for saturday...
price for entry so expensive compare to weekday leh...
partially becos of the slight fever...
they say if u r sick, u shouldnt excercise...
my father said excercise to sweat the toxins...

for once, i listened to the psychotic advice...
continue running on friday as expected...
i am not dead yet which is a blessing...

i hate running a lot, so tiring...
and so sweat-inducing...
but bo bian leh, upper body bigger than legs...
not very proportionate...
must train legs a bit to take up some meat...
beginning to c the effects which is good...
i wan those big big juicy calves one...
like those sprinter legs like tt...
but hard la, right now still canot run properly...
must train until like stallion galloping like tt...

[intermission]

i said there will be a new layout after last weekend...
the week is oreadi over and my stupid template is still there...
paisei la, i didnt mean it becos its hard to find time...
gym, run, swim got time... blog no time...
and recently playing command conquer generals mah...
tt 1 so time consuming so end up always no time for blog creation...

but all these are just excuses la...
there's always time for something...
its only whether u got the heart to do it or not...
all it takes is less than 5 minutes to do 50 situps and 50 pushups...
like tt oso call no time?
then why r u watching tv and snacking...
tv got this irritating invention call advertisements...
they are wat i call ur fitness breaks...
rest assured that advertisements always last longer than 5 minutes...
except for those late night ones which always seem so short...
like about 2-3 minutes then no more advertisements liao...
maybe ppl too anxious to watch days of our lives liao...
then they complain to the broadcasting station to shorten the ads screen time...

anyway, as i was saying...
there's always time for something...
like wat i am doing right now...
writing this post just after i finished watching jacky wu...
i was supposed to be sleeping after the show...
but i felt i have to write something...
just to show i am not in deep hibernation...

scary, usually when u dun write for days...
ur visitor count tend to drop...
since they will see why the last post so long liao...
then still haben post, they will visit for say 2-3 days straight...
then after that, they give up liao, only checking like once a week...
but im seeing some unusual stats here...

the count is still roughly the same as when i was posting regularly...
but i got quite freaked out when i noticed the times ppl visit...
its a rate of almost 1 visitor every hour...
not like 24 ppl on tt particular hour la...
or like 12 ppl on 2 hours tt type...
its really 1 visitor an hour...

its fine with me if its different ppl at different times of the day...
but if its the exact same person, guess wat?
i have a secret admirer who likes me so much...
so so much that he/she doesnt has to sleep at all...
checking on the blog for update every hour...

i did mention its a he/she...
becos i have to be prepared tt its a he...
u never know in life la, ppl can be so weird...
even better still, it might be BoA...

if its not her then okie la...
if i type "BoA" for every post tt i make from now on...
sooner or later the google n yahoo search engines ar...
will be flooded wif results from my site whenever someone search for boa...
every result will point to one destination... honggy-ism.tk
i dun care abt her other fans who might come here to write nasty things like...

"wah lan i wan to look for boa nude pics end up coming here no pics at all"

"since when BoA's english so like tt 1, got leh, lor, lar, huh, ar, siao"

"huh, BoA likes tina? since when BoA is lesbian, OMG"

"EEeeeeE, u transvestite, y u pretending to be BoA"

fact of the matter is they will have more fun typing at my tagboard...
so instead of criticism, i get more n more compliments...

"honggy~, i dream of u every day n night"

"oh my god, u are so damn hot i wanna strip u off ur clothes"

these are of cos some of the examples which my tagboard will display...
i have forgotten wat the actual messages are...
after all, its not written by me anyway, i just changed the name tts all...

who cares about her other fans anyway...
man are born selfish, i wan her all for myself loh...
and tt will only come true when i keep on dreaming la...
anyway u know stars love to check on their popularity one...
they will like google search their name then c got how many results...
some day she will see my site...
but before tt day arrives...
i have to translate the site to korean...
like i know korean like tt...
i onli got 1 whole bunch of korean movies left untouched...

anyway, over the next few weeks i will do sth to my blog...
next few weeks, LOL, how about that...
it generally means there is no time limit... :D
once i finished some business then i can conc. on the layout liao...

oso need to find out more about white spots...
or ringworms, whatever u call it, some say its the same thing...
some say they are not the same, i duno la...
i need to find out more, then maybe the marks on my forearm...
as well as the shoulder is not birth marks after all...

[end of intermission]

shit, i forgot wat i want to write le...
lingling fault~...
i oso wan to go slp liao...
tml then continue...

"memory lapse" - hong

3:44 AM

May 20, 2004 COLOURED.


the new blogger templates veri nice...
make my template look so stone age...
weekend go n steal their ideas liao...
then can add the new comments thing...

some ppl behave like idiots...
but wat to do, u cant survive without them...

"say it again say it again" - hong

10:50 PM


this is the song playing in the background currently...
love is a verb... hmmm... in my room... hmmm :D

Incubus - Here In My Room

This party is old and uninviting
Participants all in black and white
You enter in full blown technicolor
Nothing is the same after tonight

If the world would fall apart
In a fiction worthy wind
I wouldn't change a thing now that you're here
Yeah, love is a verb here in my room

You enter and close the door behind you
Now show me the world seen from the stars
If only the lights would dim a little
I'm weary of eyes upon my scars

If the world would fall apart
In a fiction worthy wind
I wouldn't change a thing now that you're here
Yeah, love is a verb here in my room

Pink tractor beam into your incision
Head spining as free as dervishs' whirl
I came here expecting next to nothing
So thank you for being that kind of girl

4:02 PM

May 19, 2004 COLOURED.


i will wait for the day when i feel uber horny...
then i will find a gf who is good at massages...
she doesnt need to know the rest...
heck i can even learn cooking...
just to have bones cracked and joints dislocated by a seasoned masseur...
absolutely pure heaven, rather than the mess i have to put up wif now...

swimming wif limp legs, malfunctioning left arm...
in short, i was a lame man...
the run on monday is driving me nuts...
at first walk still normal normal...
haben bai kar bai kar yet...
then go inside the water...
start swimming the legs like kuku...
like small kid playing with water like tt my legs...
my left arm oso duno wat happen cock up...
but tt one can understand...
wake up in the morning can feel the monday gym effects liao...
ended up spending damn long time of 1 1/2 hours struggling to finish 50...
keep swimming off course somemore, and i veri xialan...
swim so slow still camp at the centre lane...
other ppl c oso dulan but i bochap them...

hibernating is a important factor in my training schedule...
and it is something which i am sorely lacking now...
i need to nap more and sleep more at night...
duno y i always slp 5 hours then canot slp liao...

surprised with my diet a bit leh...
im gaining weight at a steady rate...
increase of 0.5kg in just 2 days...

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

thanks to constipation, canot let the shit come out..
otherwise my weight will drop then sian...
feels good to be heavy again...
63kg, need 1 more month or 2 to go past 65...

i think its a real big achievement if i can follow the timetable throughout the week...
my legs today starting oreadi canot run liao...
so damn hard like cancerous lumps on them like rocks...
any normal brisk walker can easily walk past me duno how many times...
oso duno how lingling mei mei do it one...
can run so damn long then the legs like still alive...
i cant even run half her distance my legs oreadi...
wobbly and jelly, go stairs need the railings for support...

actually all the talk about got stamina or no stamina is just bs to me...
i think its more of determination that keeps ppl going...
even when u oreadi no more energy le, but u will still continue to run...
becos set target liao, then must die die reach it or even better exceed it...
no determination 1 usually run for a while then stop le...
with determination, its the legs that is having a life of its own...
like they will do the job for u 1, u no nd to force it like pushing shit out...
same thing with swimming, 50 laps is really nothing...
u wan u can swim forever 1 loh...
only c u wan to do it or not...

my father oso run then finish liao go home...
he say come i teach u how to do pullup...

"COME I TEACH U HOW TO DO PULLUP"

eh, excuse me, are u toking to me...
i do 11 for my napfa test leh...
and u wan to teach me to do...
someone who is more than twice my age...
i was secretly laughing deep inside...
he still tink i am some weak kid or wat...
anyway, being a filial person...
i just did as i was told and followed him...

so we are there at the playground...
i thought he was referring to the monkey bars...
nah, he is more adventurous...
the playground is surrounded by those wood planks...
u know those where ppl grow some plants to cling on 1...
and surrounding the planks was the metal pipe as support...
he stepped on top of the bench and hang on the pipe...
okie, well fine, most prolly he will do 1 and then stop...
but...

he surprised me... BIG TIME

he did 4 pullups!!!!

i stopped laughing and my heart was in my mouth...
i was like siao liao lah, die liao...
just run finish always no more strength for anything...
if u ask me do those monkey bars easy la...
the bar is small and easy to grip...
the big metal pipe my hand canoot hold properly then easy to slip...
it doesnt help that i was shorter than my father...
i have to stretch veri high before i can just touch the pipe...

so there i was, hanging high up in the air...
i was waiting for my body to stop swinging before i go up...
i was oso thinking of how to break my fall in case i slip...
bloody high leh, if i land on the floor my legs sure pain like hell...
i just managed to beat my father... did 4 1/2 pullups...
on the 4th my hands were already starting to slip liao...
but i die oso wan face, force myself go up for 1 more time...
end up left fingertips struggling to support my whole body...
cant do 5 becos i was starting to go down liao...
quickly swing to one side so that my feet can touch the bench...
otherwise i end up walking with crutches le :D

i seldom talk about my father...
as i dun realli like him...
but like father like son...
im beginning to feel we have almost the same characteristics...
for one we dun like ppl who are weak...
we dun like guys who always stay at aircon rooms and scared of the sun...
okay, maybe thats where the similiarity ends...
lol, little but this factor can liao la...

whenever i come home later than him...
u must always come up with a nice excuse to pacify him...
in his point of view there is onli 1 reason to be later than him...
he demands to see sweat...
u can go n have vigorous sex, or stay in sauna...
just long as ur whole shirt is wet and ur head is full or sweat...
u will escape without any words or harm...

and for me, my perfect excuse is always gym, run, swim...

to him, sweat is everything, sweat is heaven sent...
he believes that the more u sweat, will less likely to fall sick...
if sick, then go sweat somemore, let all the toxins come out...
that is his unbelievable doctor theory which everyone says he siao...
doctors always say when u're sick, u should rest...
to him, he say the doctors are out to cheat money...

:: Incubus - Here In My Room ::

i have heard of incubus the name for veri long le...
but i never have the chance to go n listen to their songs...
then recently just got their album n was surprised...
i thought the name incubus, their music should be like metal...
end up sounds so radio friendly but radio seldom plays them...
duno how to label them, i think alternative bah...
nice song from the "A Crow Left to The Murder" album...

"wat is my number" - hong

10:35 PM

May 18, 2004 COLOURED.


dun think of the consequences...

take anything from borders and walk out without paying...
take anything from hmv and walk out without paying...
go to any shop that has sensors outside, take anything and walk out...
getting thru the movie entrance without paying...

have ur allies occupy all the fast food counters...
and each ordering 10 sets of meals...
make the queue grow long long...
then when all the meals are finally prepared...
tell them u didnt bring ur wallet and strut off...

walk past any busty ger and grabbing them...
installing cameras in changing rooms...
peeping at ppl showering...
pulling gstrings that is visible to ppl n then release *PIAK*
going up to someone u fancy n kissing her hard...

take a knife n stab someone u dun like...
kick someone u dun like in the balls...
punch his nose until its crooked...
hopefully break some joints of his with submission moves from wwe...

crossing the roads with no regards for traffic and stopping in the middle...
wait for the guy to come out of his car...
walk the other direction from where he came out...
get into the car, stepped on the accelerator...
he does the same stopping in the middle act as me...
bang him over leaving him crippled...

farting in public with no frens ard...
burping in public with no frens ard...
digging ur nose in public with no frens ard...
urinating as and when u like...
4get about holding it and stress ur bladders...
its unhealthy u know that...

pants unzipped...
shirts unbuttoned...
swimming in the nude...
dining in posh restaurant in singlet n shorts...

if i dun think about the consequences...
they are on my list of to-dos...
those that i always longed to do...

to accomplish great feats, we must stop thinking of the after effects...
however, something is always holding us back...

official week starts today...
and so far so good, did everything that was expected...
beginning to lose more calories than necessary if i carry on...
guess i just have to eat more n more...
they say the correct diet is to eat more n decrease as the day goes on...
meaning at night canot eat too much...
but then i is the other way leh...
morning eat normal, lunch eat average, dinner stuffed to death...
duno y, my breakfast cannot be porridge or rice or mee 1...
i can only survive the morning with bread...
then at night carbo load like siao, rice n soup...
my sister always c me eat rice like veri tasty like that, take so much...
rice is just... bland... if wan to gain mass can onli like tt loh...

my main protein supply of chicken kena cut off for veri long le...
then my mother like to cake me, steamed chicken...
end up i canot eat at all, have to eat porridge...
together with my father, we could finish the whole chicken...
and leaving bones to my mother n sister...
too bad he dun have a partner in crime for today...

then my mother like to cake me somemore...
come back home with virgin chicken, tong zi ji, spring chicken...
it is torture when the chicken is right in front of ur eyes...
looking so sultry and flapping her sexy wing...
while displaying her to-die-for thighs...
laying there all naked, she got me all hot...
but i could only watch in agony as other ppl stripped off her virginity...
SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MINE...

i really couldnt take it anymore, i ate a small drumstick that was leftover...
the taste of chicken, i missed it, please come back next time...
now i only scared my cough will be coming back...

my father apply soome lotion to my han pan at the back...
and it bloody sting like shit, eating my flesh away nia...
the lotion contains duno wat saly duno wat lic acid...
anyway it has got me curious, maybe the marks on my forearm and shoulder...
are han pan after all and not some marks i was born with...
wonder if i can apply the lotion to every part of my body or not...
so that i can distinguish between real marks and imitation brands...

i set a target to survive on $50 a month...
so far so good, 1 week gone and i still have 4 red notes...
not counting transport fees since i got concession done...
not counting bills, $50 for expenses and thats it...
maybe its too little, my lowest in recent months was $120...
watever, eat home everyday can liao, swim pay children fee 50 cents... :D

"before i forget" - hong

2:20 AM

May 16, 2004 COLOURED.


This is the year where hope fails you
The test subjects run the experiment
And the bastard you know is the hero you hate
But coheesing, it's possible if we try
There's no reason, there's no lesson, no time like the present
Tell me right now, what have you got to lose?
What have you got to lose? except your soul?
Who's with us?

I fight for the unconventional
I'm right, and it's unconditional
I can only be as real as I can
The disadvantages, i never knew the plan
This isn't just a way to be a martyr
I can't walk alone any longer
I fight for the ones who can't fight
And if I lose, at least I tried!

(We) We are the new diabolic
(We) We are the bitter bucolic
If I have to give my life, you can have it
(We) We are the pulse of the maggots!

I won't be the inconsequential
I won't be the wasted potential
I can make it as severe as I can
And so you'll realize, I'll never take a stand
It isn't just a one sided virgin
We dealt with a manic subversion
I won't let the truth be perverted
And I wont leave another victim deserted

(We) We are the new diabolic
(We) We are the bitter bucolic
If I have to give my life, you can have it
(We) We are the pulse of the maggots!

Do you understand? (Yes)
Do you understand? (Yes)
Do you understand? (Yes)
Do you understand? (Yes)

Say it again say it again (we wont die)
Say it again say it again (we wont die)
Say it again say it again (we wont die)
Say it again say it again (we wont die)

We fight so no one can fight us
We live and no one can stop us
We fall when we push too far
And the advantages, the bottom line is
We know how to fight in the first place
We yell it, and just spit back in their face
We won't walk alone any longer
What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger

(We) We are the new type of power
(We) We are the bitter [?]
If I have to give my life, you can have it
(We) We are the pulse of the maggots!

Do you understand (yes)
Do you understand (yes)
Do you understand (yes)
Do you understand (yes)

Say it again say it again (we wont die)
Say it again say it again (we wont die)
Say it again say it again (we wont die)
Say it again say it again (we wont die)

7:02 PM


its was butch day yesterday...
went to check out interesting artistes...
and well, all i got was butches, butches and more butches...
can be ger dun wan, wan to be butch...
not that i have anything against them...
just wanna say that 2 rods n 2 holes dun match...
we were made this way and its best not to go against it...
got figure dun wan, wan to bind them...
some gers wan them so much oso canot get wor...

the music at hmv like not bad leh...
think i can listen to 1 album a day...
wat makes good music isnt realli about the music...
the sound effect u hear is quite impt...
at hmv listen like lousy song can oso become nice song...
maybe next time i upgrade my pc will get better speakers...
oso duno wat to upgrade, if upgrade so many things must change...

i tink by now most would prolly heard of the rape incident...
the one abt some ger raped in some sg club tt was circulating around...
kena taken some drug that makes her lost consciousness and infertile permanently...
so that the rapists wun be caught as she cant remember the face...
and she wun be able to have baby to trace the dna...
it has been going ard at the friendster bulletin...
then i started receiving it on email as well...
these ppl realli nothing better to do...
anyway thanks to some ppl who is realli got nothing better to do...
they actually investigate whether its realli true or not...
it turns out that it was a hoax after all...
some similar stories were published on the net some yrs back...
same storyline, same 5 ppl, same drug name, different location onli...

the big hoax

a big thanks to ppl who have come out to assure ppl clubbing is safe...
but then again, i expect more bulletins about this quite soon...

ppl like to say i kpo wor...
but who is more kpo leh...
i have had enuf of stupid chain letters...
poor kid with weird pieces of meat growing on him...
forward to as many ppl as possible...
as aol will donate according to how many forwards u have made...
why are people so dumb...
do u think aol will realli keep track of how many forwards meh...
just stop sending idiotic mails okie...
if its from someone i duno then neber mind la...
i still can forgive their kind-heartedness...
but if the forwarded message is from someone i know...
they are going to be killed...

use ur brains la, where ur brains all go to...
c too much porn feel too guilty issit...
must do some good deeds to feel better ar...
u r doing a good deed by not sending useless mail...
u r doing a good deed by sharing ur porn...
u r doing a good deed by deleting the mail immediately...

thats wat everyone should be educated on...
deleting mail is an art which ppl dun appreciate...
it explains why so many ppl always kena infected by email viruses...
no matter how hard symantec tried to educate users...
they still do the same thing, open out of curiousity...
now who's more kpo huh huh huh huh huh...

[Utada Hikaru - Wait and See ~ Risk]

i know its kinda lame to play this song...
but this is one of my faves for jpop...
since my knowledge of artistes are quite limited...
so play this song for fun...

"the other ones, the evil ones" - hong

1:09 PM

May 13, 2004 COLOURED.


a wise man once said ppl who dun look beyond wun last long...
but someone wiser said wise man who daydream and whine wun last long either...
the wise man he should know who he is...
the wiser man, is of cos the person who slps whenever possible...

can guys pls go n put on some weight...
got beer belly oso never mind...
as long as got bulging stomach...
and have some tan or watever...
as long as its dark enuf to know its a guy...

i go swimming everytime from far far c i thought is some ger...
then go closer c wah lanz guy down there duno do wat...
from far far c realli look like ger leh...
skinny figure, hunched shoulders, fair skin...
make me down there wondering y gers nowadays so daring...
the top all never wear, want to show off their boobs ar...
mind u, not onli 1 guy, a lot of guys i from far all thought is ger...

no takumi around reali sian...
none offers a good challenge...
got 2 or 3 swim faster than me considerably...
but too bad they swim a while then stop le...

then oso duno y, everyone down there so nua...
the guys all spread throughout the pool nua...
then onli the gers swimming onli...
we guys weak liao la, lose to gers...

camp down there machiam like resort...
dun feel like singapore at all...
no hdb flats nearby, quiet traffic...
the bloody hot but nice sun...
ppl realli should go swimming leh...
at home so humid and hot...
at the pool the water so cooling...
dun feel like the weather hot hot...
the onli thing i dun like is the after-effects...
headache from brain freeze is so common...
n the eyes veri stinging...
other than tt, its gd...

gaining mass is so much harder than losing weight...
been force feeding myself these few days...
tml go gym weigh should be heavier a bit liao...
theres no big deal about losing weight really...
excercise everyday cfm the weight sure drop...
but must do those cardiovascular ones...
u spend whole day do qi gong oso consider sports...
but then lose weight wait long long loh...
eat wat slimming pools extrim all useless 1 de...
going against the nature only does more harm than good...

"away from the darkness to neverland" - hong

9:22 PM

May 12, 2004 COLOURED.


imagine...

::Scenario 1::

we eat pigs...
we eat cows...
we eat goats...
we eat chickens...
we eat ducks...
we eat geese...
we eat pigeons...
we eat ostriches...
we eat sharks...
we eat abalones...
we eat fish...
we eat crabs...
we eat lobsters...

what do u classify them as...
animals rite, they cant be humans anyway...
since we eat animals, why do ppl squirm when cats n dogs n rabbits are being served...
then go and scold the restaurant, say wat no morals...
go and cook these type of animals to eat...
then want to complain to their respective SPCA...

animals are just animals...
no they are pets u argue...
then wat abt ppl who keep chickens...
oso their pets wat, yet they still eat them...

now wat if i tell u the meat that u have been eating ur whole life...
isnt really chicken or any type of meats u would eat...
but in fact its the cats n dogs that u swear u would never eat...
how do u really know what are u eating outside...
at home u still can see the live thing before its dead...
at restaurants everything is done behind closed doors...

"i know i am eating chicken becos it tastes like chicken la, will u shut up"

how the fuck do u really confirm u are eating chicken...
just becos it tastes like chicken???
hmm, u mean u know how cats n dogs taste like rite...
that means u have actually eaten them b4???

::Scenario 2::

a van stops nearby...
out came 2 policemen...
the 3rd policeman stood watch...
the 2 took out the 2 long metal casings containing cash...
walked towards the atm machine to refill cash...

now wat if someone wif a woman's red panties on his head...
appears out of nowhere but everyone can smell worn before underwear...
its the legendary smelly red riding hood!

he kicks the policeman's balls...
the policeman next to him is stunned...
and the red riding hood took the metal casing and whack the other guy...
onlookers remain just that, looking but not doing anything...
he draws out the pistol from the policeman's waist...
and shot the police guarding the van thru the head...
mind u, hes a marksman during sec sch okie...

finally someone screams...
red riding hood stares at the screamish person...
she stops the screaming and wets herself...
in broad daylight oreadi so horny liao...
red riding hood took the the 2 metal casings full of cash...
but it was handcuffed to the fallen policemen's hands...
too lazy to search for the key...
red riding hood took out his trusted penknife...
and began sawing away at their hands...
he could hear moans and hellish screams...
but he doesnt care becos he cant hear...
other than the red panties on his head...
he oso has a red colored bra which he wore like mickey mouse...
the 2 cups covering his ears for total comfort n support...
completely soundproof, he doesnt hear a thing...
the transquillity while seeing ppl's expressions is turning him on...
its like a perfect masterpiece of art...

so he took the casings along with 2 hands...
took the van as well and stepped on the accelerator hard...
the van reversed and killed some ppl who were behind...
paisei, he never take driving lessons before so he duno how to drive...
changed from reverse gear to forward and stepped the gas again...
pathetic ppl were standing in front trying to stop the van...
ppl, wat can they do to the red riding hood huh...
and so he ran them over wif the van...
they serve as additional humps on the ground...
hear the screams and cracking of bones along the way...
but red riding hood couldnt hear a thing at all...
and so he took off, cash n everything...
since the red riding hood and robin hood share some affinity...
they share the same father after all dun they, surname HOOD...
he decided to drop some cash for some charity and pocket the rest...

nobody knows wats his next target...
and he is growing a mountain of hands in his lair...
surprising? hardly...

::Moral of Story::

what stops ppl from being so great...
is the fact that they think too much...
thinking about the possibilites, about the outcomes...
this thinking is taking up far too much time...
and becos of that, we missed out on many things...

if i never said u are eating cats n dogs up til now...
u would still continue eating it cos its delicious rite...
if i said its cats n dogs, u would start to think...
and once u think, u will go eeeee and become a vegan liao...

regarding the red riding hood...
i have been observing them recently...
i dun see how hard it is to get that casings from them...
seeing that they do things so casually...
just becos its singapore, its safe u think...
but i wun be surprised if someone decides to steal it...
robbery at some jewellery shop is much harder loh...
if onli the criminals can be more smart...
they need to hire some advisor to assist them...
anyway the policemen will be stunned too...
becos they never faced a situation like this...
and everyone gets horny in borad daylight and wet themselves...

if u dun think about the consequences...
i bet that anyone will try to take the money as well...

i am preaching the government's psychoing of entrepreneurship...
if u're caught, just say the government told me to do it...

not thinking before acting is reckless many say...
truth is, the more u think, the more u r not going to do it...
like that then good wat right, never commit crimes...
but it applies to every aspect of ur life...

like the ger but dun dare to proclaim ur love for her...
who knows wat will happen if u are reckless and just do it...
and u will still be eating cats n dogs becos u dun care anymore...
but its okie, everyone is guilty of thinking too much...

(this question is based on looks only, nothing abt character is taken into consideration)
given the chance...
to rape the hottest lady and end up in jail...
or stay wif an ugly looking lady for the rest of ur life...
what will u really choose...

i asked this question before...
and i have given my answer before...
only toy knew wat that was...

"nothing is impossible if u dun tink abt it" - hong

11:56 AM

May 09, 2004 COLOURED.


official training week is 2 weeks later...
but duno why now i got no motivation for it...
think the next whole week can swim swim liao...
since the whole schedule kena disrupted...

all this talk abt so fit still wan to train wat is juz plain nonsense...
whenever i step inside a gym, i am always one of the weakest...
dun compare me wif those who complain so hot so hot i dun wan to excerise le...
or those "wah lau, the sun will make my face not mei mei"
"i juz do facial wor, c my face has whitened le"
pale ghastly looking ppl turns me off...
and stop comparing them wif me...
they dun even want to excerise, prefer to act cute wif gers...

5 months, i will improve my physique...
i wan to get the perfect score for physical test...
not just the just pass or just get gold pattern...
theres no kick in achieving that honestly...
anyone can do that if they work hard enuf...

i wan to shoot up to 66kg, hopefully a 68 or 69...
have to work on shoulders and legs...
and make sure going to ns is not that tough...
if i dun do now, go in do liao ai si ai si will veri demoralised...

being me, i dun have anything for my mother today...
same thing for fathers day...
same thing for father's bdae..
same thing for mother's bdae...
same thing for sister's bdae...
same thing for my bdae...
i never kiss or hug my parents b4...
i never showed love to them b4...
my sister oso, although she sometimes do something for them on special days...
as u can see, i dun celebrate things much...
so exams over, or attachment over...
its still, so what? big deal...
still doing the same things...
except facing the pc more often than ever...
and being able to do things my way...

swim n gym n home not sian meh...
lol, cookies, u not the only one who asked me that qn b4...
basically i got no life mah...
but i will be going to borders almost daily during may n june period...
thats why i always hate ppl who say sian sian sian...
try getting anyone to live my life then they will say wah u more sian...
i prefer it in a way that no one knows wat u are doing all along...
like u dun go out when they asked u to...
and whatever u do always solo king...
then once in a while go out to meet them...
just to prove that u are still alive and kicking...
and always hear some stupid comments...
like "wah, u changed so much liao ar, y u so chao tar, y ur hair like tt"
the most idiotic one i have ever heard is "grow so tall liao ar"
fact is i have stopped growing vertically ever since my sec sch finish??

i like swimming becos its relaxing...
not the swimming part of cos...
if u call swimming relaxing...
u must be one of those who swim almost vertically...
its when u finish it then the time just stopped...
everything starts to go slow and u dun feel so stress liao...
like completely free of worries and nothing to bother u...

this feeling is oso similiar when u finish running...
but then running veri stress leh...
always run like ai si ai si, wan to give up...
swimming can like swim forever without wanting to give up...

tml is what they call "now thats life"
going to sch to hand in paper...
going to JP to watch van hellsing wif frens...
must go out n spend money then call life hor...
like that life is so expensive leh...
my ideal of life is sitting at kopitiam wif a group of frens...
and stay there from afternoon until night, crap about anything...
like those uncle uncle types always do 1...
down there camping, then keep ordering beer...
duno leh, whenever i at kopitiam like oso relaxing...
then can sit there shake leg shake leg...

no life, i tink its life...
wait til i get to ns...
thats wat i call no life...
if i know more frens from there...
and they all hiong hiong ones...
then i wun get to experience the life im living now...
will be going out almost everyday whenever got chance to book out...
and my parents will complain liao...
army come back not tired ar, still wan to go out...
go out still so late then come back, so dangerous...

they will complain, but if i stay home they oso complain...
like right now loh, father ask me 5 months stay home not boring meh...
u really wan me to get out? if i get out i wun be coming back...
whenever i go out, i just wan to stay out as long as possible...
wats so boring at home, i still got many movies to clear...
i still got one piece to watch...
still got hellsing to watch...
and that horrifying lotr trilogy which i haben seen yet...
i get very scared whenever i c that lying on my pc...
becos u watch 1 a day doesnt make sense...
wan to watch means watch on the same day liao...
imagine sitting thru the whole 8 hours watching it...
and then i still got so many games to complete as well...

in 5 months time, if anyone managed to see me...
most prolly u thought i was living in some isolated island for months...
until then, i can always be found at woodlands swimming complex :D

"grapefruits" - hong

9:54 PM


last smile, lady madonna, standing bird blew me away...
neverland, needless to say is THE SONG...
theres no one left in this world who has her unique voice...
it may take some time to load, but its worth it :D

Love Psychedelico - neverland

so long my memories
all beneath my love
siren then silence
far, I hear the voice

so calm. I'm going down
gently inside

daydream of the neverland
far, I close my eyes

so slow. I'm going down
deep inside

* oh wish of the darkness
oh silently falling
into the light
the way from the darkness
to neverland

so long my melodies
all behind my words
shadows of the silence
hide my time away

slow down, calling my heart
moving inside

hold on...

daydream of shadow and light
so long all my memories gone
daydream of shadow and light

so long my memories
all beneath my love
siren then silence
far, I heard the voice

so calm, I'm going down
gently inside

oh wish of the darkness
oh silently falling
oh wish of the darkness
into the light
the way from the darkness
to neverland

10:14 AM

May 08, 2004 COLOURED.


this is the only song that keeps me motivated...
what is pain when u can be wat u can to be... :D

Its all about the game you fall like the rest
your failure is my success
Its all about control, will you make it?
I WILL DELIVER THE PAIN YOU CAN TAKE IT!
I'm in control i am the pain
after this you won't be the same
this is my time i make the rules
YOU MESS WITH THIS AND YOU DIE LIKE A FOOL!

PAIN!
here comes the pain

time to play the game!

I am the debt that can't be paid
you're going down in flames
this is my time i cannot lose
LIVE OR DIE YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE!
It's all about me i am the one
soon you'll see there's no where to run
I am the threat that is so real
THROUGH THE FLAME AND THE SWEAT THE PAIN, YOU WILL FEEL!

PAIN!
here comes the pain

no where to run , no where to hide
now its time to die!
i am the pain i am the game
YOU WON'T FORGET MY NAME!

time to feel the pain
GO!

time to play the game!


11:23 AM

May 07, 2004 COLOURED.


the more u think about it, it will never appear before ur eyes...
if u dun think about it, it will come to u naturally...
thats how i live my life, taking things easy...
u expect so many things to work out ur way meh...
take the opposite mindset and be surprised day by day...

in school i think 4 weeks is a long way to go...
in working 4 weeks to me is like nothing liao...
time flies, from monday can jump straight to friday...
i think it helped alot by not counting down...
that is an example of not expecting it to end...
makes life easy, rather than waiting for this day to come...
and it seem like eternity before u get to 5:30pm...
dun tink of it and it is just another day...
and time flies before i could even say my goodbyes...
i think its human nature, when u're in it...
u always dread this dread that...
always wish no need to go work or sth like tt...
then when the time is approaching liao...
u tend to feel something for it...

last time sec sch in npcc oso like that...
always wish can no nd go and no nd stay back...
think about it now, it helped me lay the foundations...
the brainless punishment and the endless scoldings...
for the first time i felt a sense of belonging...
it left me with bittersweet memories...

why am i saying all this for...
i said that i will leave with no regrets...
but that was if it goes according to plan...
life likes to play tricks on u...
everytime when u got it nicely planned...
something funny will always appear 1...
i got another letter from mindef yesterday...
said something about my ns thing...
it was postpone until 30th september...
ended up i from being one of the earliest to go in...
become i am one of the last fews to enter ns...
initially i only thought the date will be somewhere in july...
since they say its a 6 week reduction...
so now i have 5 damn months with nothing to do...

5 MONTHS!

instead of being a beach boy...
i can be beach boy cum freakazoid cum shaggy hair cum master of all pigs...
my mother told me what im going to do...
i told her exactly that...
beach boy cum freakazoid cum shaggy hair cum master of all pigs...
she said i should give that all up and take the 5 months to learn cooking...

COOKING!

i got nothing to say...
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im fine with slacking for 5 solid months...
but i wonder how am i going to live without income for 5 months...
i know my mother wun give me allowance...
and my bank balance, just about enuf to see me thru...

so i did give some thought of staying on to work...
the boss keep asking me to extend...
but right now i cant, i have to stop my cough first...
when i paid him a final visit...
he said he was serious and asked me to give him a call if im interested...
if its fated, no matter wat i choose, the outcome will be the same...
and today is the first time i have exchanged numbers wif a ger...
i still cant believe that i did it without any hesitation...
well, theres no need for any nervousness when u're asking someone whom u treat like a sister...

i just found out how 38 the colleagues realli can be...
the boss wanted to treat me lunch but i refused...
he is well-known for his stingy-ness since hes the financial controller...
then news spread like wildfire, the CS ppl knew abt it...
the HR ppl knew about it, the finance ppl knew abt it...
then all come ask me izzit true that i spurned his advances...
ya, i scared wait he start to get touchy-feely around...
then they say if he want to treat then let him treat la...
he seldom so generous de, got chance oso dun wan to take...
to me, its fated, there are always some other chances...

saw the doctor to get antibiotics...
he said the same things as all the other doctors said...
aviod chilli, avoid sour things, avoid any sensitive tastes...
avoid cold drinks, avoid chicken, avoid eggs...
i asked him if i can swim...
he said yea, y not, its relaxing, just dun do too strenous excercises...
whenever i do sports, thats no such thing as relaxing...
but maybe i will listen to the doctor for once...

"kowtow to master pig all u cookies" - hong

9:12 PM

May 05, 2004 COLOURED.


i still cannot believe that 3 ppl in the company went for a SDU dinner...
yesh, u heard me right, its the SDU dinner...
social development unit i think...
but there are many bad names for SDU rite...
i didnt know about it until my network admin told me abt it...
she was telling the guy who went why he never brought me along...
i thought siao ah, bring me go there...
but they say the dinner is FOC 1...
he said i would not be interested in these type of outings...

i tink its more like he sees me as a threat...
after all, if i were to go out there to show myself...
that would make me the youngest out there...
and i guess i would be quite popular wif the ladies...
i admit i dun have the looks...
and i admit i dun have the charm...
but i do know those 30 sth yr olds like young men...
they like to show off their catches as their toyboys...

then i will be singing the shawn michaels entrance song...
"im just a sexy boy (sseexxxay boooii), im not ur boytoy"

i dun mind 30-sths, and i sure dun mind 40-sths...
as long as they are like maggie cheung or kuan zi lin...
and its good becos they dun whine so much...
even though they will be menopausal quite soon...
but they have enuf experience to deal wif it...

anyway i was busy sorting my computer...
i really have to stop my bad habit of downloading...
hard disk no more space liao still die die continue dl...
my initial plans of keeping movies backfired...
now i oreadi started to delete movies liao...
at first i thought see liao still can keep...
in case anyone needs to watch it then can come over or i send them...
but bo bian la, too many things to dl le...
at least i have some priority settings when deleting...
not nice films watch liao delete...
funny films but not enuf to have a lasting effect oso delete...
films with nude scenes to be kept :X
films which singapore neber show oso keep...

if only i never dl games in the first place...
but i thought if i juz keep getting movies...
very soon my hard drive will be very empty...
all eyecandy and no entertainment...
so over the past week...
i got manhunt, the game which i wanted since it came out on ps2...
and then i got a bit crazy and got hitman:contracts...
out of boredom i got postal 2: share the pain...
i never play their originals b4...
heard about the old postal in sec sch...
when they kept talking about it like veri fun liek tt...

and i duno why i got all these killing ppl for fun games...
after these 3, i saw another game name which caught my eye...
and so now i have gangland...
sounds interesting leh, sims-cum-gta-cum-c&c...
can go n marry wife 1...
then c the wife characteristics how...
then the kids can either grow up to be lawyers, enforcers or seductress...
and they can help u fight in gangfights...
then can buy land collect money from the shops...

but before i can do all that...
i have to do the dreaded maintenance...
if i dun wan to do, then my 120gb hard disk sooner or later will buang...
thats the problem wif big sized harddisk...
lets u store many things, but sucks when it comes to maintaining...
the last time i scanned it, it was 90% fragmented...
90% out of 120gb... go figure how many gb is fragmented...
b4 i got the 120 i 2 years used the old 20gb oso neber reach until 90% leh...
so wat they say about bit torrent is true...
it shortens the hard disk life span faster than u tink...

from this morning 6am until now...
i have left the defragmenting tool on...
it has just finished defragmenting...
and the time now is 9pm...
a nice 15 hours defragmenting...
fragmentation of the drive is now a cool 3%...
but its going to increase again...
becos i have used BT again...
i think i need to clear a cool 20gb off...
before i can dl things without any worries...

tml left scanning for spyware...
manually delete obsolete registry values...
virus scan, trojan scan and thats it...
free to go back on irc...
fyi, i wasnt hit wif the sasser virus...
Win ME is not affected at all...
Win2k n WinXP n Win2K3 are lame, thats all :P

"2 days to self destruction" - hong

9:26 PM


my first attempt at shape tweening...








12:23 PM

May 04, 2004 COLOURED.


keeping a low profile gets u far in life...
ppl will tend to let their guards down...
and starts to babble about stuff which u wouldnt imagine...
the only bad spot is u will end up almost non existant...
u scared wat ghost woR when u r the ghost itself...
and that is exactly wat happened today...

i was all ready to go home liao...
then the cheenaman call me down to help him...
yet another case of porno surfing...
end up his home page being changed...
and some nice tweaks to the registry...
by the lovely dovey spyware...
next time if a pc ever crashes...
dun ever blame the IT ppl for not backing up...
u urself so horny wan to surf porn in office...
then neber wear protection anyhow surf surf...
now end up computer pregnant liao how...
take the IT ppl to be scapegoat...
and say wat we father the child, not them...
pls oh pls, being masters of the trade...
we know how to cover up our tracks...
leave no traces of evidence behind...

finish task liao faster get my bag and rush down...
i still can c the big bus but then the small bus gone le...
i couldnt believe my eyes man, they actually left me behind...
now u get what i mean by i am the ghost...
i was ready to kick the guard dog...
i was ready to fly into a rage and scream the A - Z of vulgar words...
but shit la, the big bus still there...
and the ppl inside quite a lot...
haiz, i must keep my nonchalant reputation intact...
so i act cool and walk towards the back of the big bus...
pretend pretend behind got the small bus...
then carry my bag like veri siao sa like that...

when ppl are looking, u cant afford to look silly...
i am not william hung, and i will neber behave like him...
so i couldnt be standing down there like an idiot...
crying loudly for mummy or sit down on the floor n throw tantrums...
i act like i dun care if the bus is gone or not...
i still have my 2 legs anyway... so who needs buses!

but if i were to realli walk home...
i will really cry liao loh...
last time from chinese garden walk home to yew tee...
oreadi takes up 3 hours liao...
from tuas to yew tee...
can die leh, somemore must walk along expressway...

lucky today richard is still in the office...
usually he's at some other place...
at least can take his car home i happy...

so while i stay down there waiting for richard to finish his work...
my network admin called and shocked to hear i still haben leave yet...
she say serene call her to confirm whether i still at office or not...
aiya like shit leh, bus haben gone yet dun wan to ask...
bus go off liao then realised where has the ghost gone...
what can i say, i am not that angry actually...
it cant be compared to that when ppl dun trust ur ability...
that is wat i deem the ultimate insult...
i think i am a very revenge guy...
dun trust me, i make sure u will regret...
and i will kill u until u die...

anyway, my sole consolation is i will be remembered...
becos that intranet website will be going live tml...
u know how it feels like when u c sth...
made from scratch all by urself...
and ppl are finally able to see ur masterpiece...
heck it looks way better than the old intranet...
even though the flash is still a bit retard...
i have made it look less retard now...
and the boss is satisfied...
once it goes live, i hope ppl will be curious...
then my efforts wun go to waste...
when i mean curious i mean they will ask some questions like...
how come got FLee 1, whos FLee, wats FLee...
i didnt indicate who did this whole intranet thing...
i only leave my trademark all over the place...
all over the pages, if the boss finds it distracting...
feel free to edit all 46 pages of them...
which i dun think he has the time and patience to do it...

i neber thought of this FLee until recently...
i was always envious wif ppl who have nice initials...
i particularly liked TK...
u know ppl say it like so shun like that, T.K...
he's a japanese music producer if u didnt know...
it was quite long ago when i heard of his name...
then i started tinkering wid my own name...
trying to find some nice combos...
but all ended up like garbra banana rama dana..
i onli got inspiration after working in the company...
when i learnt of their naming convention for user logins...

watever, i am supposed to be talking about ghosts...
i dun believe in ghosts or spirits or watever...
i believe they only exist in ur own brain and nowhere else...

but then sometimes, given the right atmosphere...
the ghost stories, the late nights, the eerie silence...
the surroundings does give u the creeps...
we always like to dare each other...
not realli scared of ghosts?
go and spend a night at the cemetary...
theres nothing realli eerie about cemetaries...
its only the silence and the singing of crickets...
that gets u into the mood and starts to play wif ur mind...

i think its the subconcious that is playing tricks on u...
remember how u have dreams becos of some things u have seen earlier in the day?
if ppl appear in ur dreams, are they counted as ghosts?
of cos not u say, becos they are alive n kicking...
but basically thats becos u have seen them b4 mah...
if u dream of ppl u neber c before...
u will wake up wif ur wet pants and say u have nitemare...

why do we always hear things at night...
why do we always see things at night...
y not see or hear in the day...
ooh, becos they scared of light rite...
but i see no reason why they are scared of artificial light as well...
then why always so bloody one...
and y always give that kind of face...
i thought gers are born vain...
die die oso wan to mei mei...
die liao dun wan to be mei liao meh...
go around wif that horrid look to scare ppl...
why when living that time dun wan to scare ppl wor...
prefer to stay home when pimple outbreak...
hmm let me see, when living they oso scare ppl liao la...
wif their makeup, they look more ghosts than the real ghost...

if there are ghosts, shouldnt we see more old ghosts...
those ah peks n ah mas...
loitering in kopitiams lim kopi...
kwa beer aunties and hwee yew hwee hiao pos...

next time u feel sleepy, juz go to slp...
dun bother abt ghosts ka jiao u...
once u wan to slp le, u wun even think of them...
think of them for wat, u can tink of tina n boa...
waste time thinking about ghosts who wan to scare u...
i like wet dreams but i dun like these type of wet dreams...
oso dun bother about them disturbing u in ur slp...
the next most irritating thing next to being looked down upon...
is that when u are disturbed in ur sleep...
if i can even curse at my mother for disturbing me...
wat say u abt the chances of ghosts...
i will spank their asses until their pigu ang ang...
then i go fry them and give ppl eat as ang ku kueh...

anyway if realli got ghosts, the world must be getting squeezy...
combine all the dead ghosts and spirits...
not forgetting the dinosaurs...
ghots where got chance to live...
dead dinosaurs so big, walk ard crush all the sadakos...
sadako wan to climb up well oso no chance in hell...
u see, u claim to c ghosts...
why dun u see dinosaurs b4...
they oso die wat rite...
who says they die juz like tt...
oso got some dinosaurs suicide or wat 1 mah...
they climb up mountains then jump loh...
and dinosaurs oso will kena hit in road accidents 1 mah...
they so big sized, the drivers wan to avoid oso canot...
u think i crap izzit, last time where got cars...
then u wrong liao loh, u neber watch cartoon izzit...
neber watch flintstones 1 ar huh...
ghosts... more like mental hospital for u la...
u tell me u c dinosaur then i believe there are ghosts on earth...

anyway here's a rather disgusting picture..


i swear i didnt do this!!!
this is simply inhumane...
fancy stacking one on top of another...
its okie if someone is sitting on ur head...
thats becos u have a big fat head...
but its not okie when the person's legs is between ur head...
it must feel so uncomfortable for bean bear...
tts like being low blow over n over...
but i feel more sorry for my beloved snoopy...
imagine ppl's jewels hanging on ur head...
somemore bean bear like never go bathe b4 loh...
haiyah, sure stink like siao...
oso duno y snoopy so happy smile smile...
must bave learnt all the sicko bad things from me...

"3 days to self destruction" - hong

11:47 PM

May 02, 2004 COLOURED.


everyone address me by xiaodi at the office...
only those that are in their 20s call me by name...
duno la, but i find it veri weird...
i never call my seniors jie, kor, all those...
almost everyone i call by name 1...
then got wat father side uncle mother side uncle...
all got those proper terms 1 rite...
i all call them uncle auntie can liao...
duno all those shu shu, jiu jiu difference...

i tink its a generation gap or something...
those born in mid 80s all like duno how to address the elders properly...
sometimes the older generations find us rude or no manners...
but it realli feels awkward to address someone properly...
call by name more qing xie mah, doesnt it make them feel younger?
they like to be old hags then never mind loh...
i like to make them feel young...

days of the past always seem so happy...
the present always looks bleak...
why cant we go back to the way it used to be...
being just friends and all...
finding a place to laugh ourselves away...
why does it have to end up this way...
tensions here and there, rivalry present...

sadly circumstances made it this way...
u can try to make amends...
but the damaged has oreadi been done...
sometimes not knowing anything is a bliss...
knowing everything can be a pain in the ass...

would u still consider it a secret if u told someone abt it...
and telling the person not to tell others about it...
and the person go n tell another person who is not related to the first person...
and telling the person not to tell others about it...
and the person go n tell another person who is not related to the second person...
and telling the person not to tell others about it...
and the person go n tell another person who is not related to the third person...
and telling the person not to tell others about it...

if u have been using friendster, u would have noticed something by now...
everyone is interlinked together...
your old friends actually know ur current frens...
and ur fren's fren knows ur other fren...
its a rather weird cycle...

so if u apply this friendster chain to the secret thing...
u know that something bad will happen...
and the person go n tell another person who is not related to the N-th person...
and telling the person not to tell others about it...

the problem is, this N-th person is the one who started it all...
the one who told a secret to a person and told him not to tell others abt it...
now would u still consider something said to a friend as secrets?

basically its a trust thing...
most will say neber mind la, i trust this person...
sadly nobody can be trusted easily...
there are only a few in this world who can realli keep their mouth shut...
the rest will somehow or rather blurt it out...
even though the person whom they told is not related to the originator...
sooner or later, the secret will go back to where it belong...

if u r one of those who follow the horoscope religiously...
u must be one of those who believe everything is fated...
events are destined and bound to happen...
i have heard ppl who say horoscopes are quite accurate...
and they oso believe ppl born in wat month wat month will have wat characteristics...
if its so predictable, do u ever wonder...
it isnt realli the surroundings that affect us after all...
i used to think that it was the surroundings...
but if horoscopes can already tell wat sort of person u are...
dun u tink wat type of life u lead is all fated?
its like everything is written nicely in a book...
then it is juz waiting for the right time for the events to unfold...
wat they call the premonitions...
like no matter how u change it, avoid it...
it will still come looking...

as much as i believe in destiny...
i am not much a fan of horoscopes...
even though it sounds too real to be true...
its a rather scary thought honestly...
thats y i dun use my brain so much now...
remember the key persons i wrote in my previous post some time back...
some ppl appear at some point of ur life to change ur path towards life...
some frens come and go, but some will change ur outlook completely...
they are the ones which i call ppl wif a mission...
ppl designated to guide u to how ur life should be...
i believe we are living in a virtual world...
which is somewhat similiar to the matrix...
but that is something for the science fiction fans...

being a libran, im blessed wif the ability to see the big picture...
even though it took me quite some time to be enlighten...
i think my inability to speak helps me alot...
when u dun speak, u hear many things which are most likely missed out by others...
im beginning to put that to good use at work...
my supervisor always ask me how i know about this incident that incident...
its simple, juz keep quiet n look uninterested...
then the ppl around u tend to put their guards down...

u know u realli shouldnt disturb someone in his sleep becos...

1) u neber know he might bite
2) u neber know he might kick
3) u neber know he might be enraged
4) u neber know he curse n swear
5) u neber know he might be dead

ppl find me hard to understand...
fact is, they never bother to understand...

"my heart is made of stone, not gold" - hong

11:17 PM

May 01, 2004 COLOURED.


Do you rememeber when we used to
Do you rememeber when you used to
Do you remember life
Well, as you're led out to the slaughter
You ought to


u either learn to love or hate flash entirely...
im on the verge of trashing the whole computer...
and just count down the last 5 days of my attachment...
the only thing thats keeping me sane is the end result...
i guess i am learning flash the hard way...
already lost count of the number of times i have to restart all over...

theres no need for any special artistic ability...
u just need the ability to see through things...
and suddenly everything juz starts to look easy liao...
i have been doing my study on flashes all over the internet...
trying to visualise how to do it...
focusing on the imaginary layers instead of the stunning visuals...
slowly beginning to understand how things are done...
but some things are still puzzling me...
never mind la, my flash trial at my office oreadi finish liao...
next week canot use, lol dun wan to get the serial from my home...
left 5 days liao, keep complaining about my flash...
i never learn flash b4 loh...
i can do like that oreadi nice nice liao...
if he say sth about the html never mind la...
becos that is my forte and something i understand well...

everyone thought i was leaving that day...
im more than happy to announce that its my last day...
but blame the LO who's coming down on monday...
its over, its over, why the hell do u still have to come over...

i think im beginning to feel normal again...
its been quite a long time since i ever feel so at ease...
maybe its the hot weather...
maybe its the swimming season...
but i have a minor problem...
coughing again...
start of april feel so good...
then recently got it again...
left 7 days to do something abt it...
otherwise i cant start my big mac diet liao...
i have oreadi forgotten how chicken taste like...
been over 3 months liao?
duno la, bic mac is beef so still never mind...
its the drinks that will have an effect...

You know I never wanted to go away
But what am I supposed to say
When I hear the sounds of the trumpet call
Who says

All is fair in love and war


"5 days to self destruction" - hong

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