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November 30, 2003 COLOURED.


having altered endless gowns and stuff...
my mother has seen all sorts of brides and grooms since she started work 7 years ago...
and now she has set a #1 rule for my partner...
if i so happen to have one that is...
she demanded that the bride must not be beautiful...
hey, i thought she said BoA is nice the other time...
like that BoA how to make the cut...

my #1 criteria = no square shoulders...
either u chip, file, nail, break...
juz use watever means to get rid of sharp edges...
it hurts, no not the chipping process...
square shoulders hurt ppl around u...

i froze for a moment at borders yesterday...
i thought i saw her...
but cant be...
she oso no reaction...
and she cant be here right now...
amazed at her uncanny resemblance...

oh ya, my father was locked out yesterday...
imagine being the owner of the house and having no keys to go home...
i never felt so shioked b4...
he actually has to wait for me to come back...
and he was sitting outside with the look of a terrified kid...
i was wHAHAHAahh-ing deep inside!

pretty scary when i hear Korn - Right Now for the first time...
this song is realli not meant for kids...
kids will run scared, screaming for their mothers...
the mtv is freaking gross...
the more i listen the more i like it though...
yet another nice hate anthem added to my list...

i tink this is my first proper post after getting cable...
i can write becos i cant get to internet right now...
lol, duno wat happen, scv laggy...

at first i thought i'll be flooding my hdd wif music and videos...
currently all im getting is movies...
im not into movies really...
movies is the only thing u can download without any fuss...
still i got amelie...
i love amelie, absolutely dig her...
but she dun fit my mother's criteria...
and i finally got my hands on kung pow...
that was 1 of the movies i always wanted to watch but cant becos of dialup...
people said its lame, others find it downright hilarious...
once i finish that list, i will finish the anime episodes jimmy gave me the other time...
more importantly i have to find some music sites that offer album downloads...
maybe have to source the whole irc network to find those freak channels...

now i know wat its like to lurk in irc...
leave the power on every night...
and not a single soul...

"shut up or ill fuck u up" - hong

9:43 PM

November 29, 2003 COLOURED.


BA9015 FINANCIAL MANAGEMENT FOR ENGINEERS DIST
ET0019 WIRELESS NETWORKING C
ET0021 COMPUTER & NETWORK SECURITY B
ET0022 FINAL YEAR PROJECT C
ET0026 NETWORK MANAGEMENT A
ET0110 SOFTWARE ENGINEERING C
MS5380 HIGHER MATHEMATICS A

so happy to get distinction for the first time...
but not so happy when u get so many Cs...
if wan give me 5Cs la, give me C� for wat...
i oraedi have chuance liao...

10:24 AM

November 28, 2003 COLOURED.


pardon me if im boring in my previous post...
i was too caught up with cable to write...
and i learn many lessons as well...
i got hit by a virus on my first day of cable...
did a deep scan and 8 viruses, worms, trojans found...
better not download software programs from kazaa...
other stuff can download, software dangerous sia...

and oso the fake names...
keep getting the wrong files...
wat will they gain by changing the file name...
in the end waste time and effort from both sides man...

found out the reason why my eyes are twitching...
they are damn tired...
but i juz cant get to sleep...
my mind is not sleepy...
always wide awake...
oso duno wat happen...
reaction from overuse of drugs?
i can live with 2 hour sleep now...
but its bad for my health...
my stomach is always churning...
juz wish i can sleep with no problems...

oh ya, juz bear wif my seriousness for a while...
i am in no crapping mood right now...
wait for next month first week though...
i assured new changes to the blog...
cos thats when i get the digi cam...
and i promised min. a picture a day...

"depends on how u c it" - hong

2:38 PM


getting new specs is a chore...
i always fear going to an optician...
simply becos i hated the eye test...
they were never accurate...
and keep giving me higher degrees...
then always end up very giddy...

i went to the old looking shop...
the other shop got younger sales staff...
but i prefer old birds, more experience...
their business not bad, no ppl to service me 1...
who ask that stupid parent extra...
keep asking the staff dumb questions...
ask so much for wat...
ask ask ask then neber buy...
serve me better, i always have to spend for my eyes...
the boss was busy taking eye tests for the rest of his customers...
but he saw me and just tell me to find a suitable frame first...
finally the female staff came over and apologised...
when gers are so polite, i have nothing to say...
everything else can be forgiven...
my right eye increased degree liao...
happy my left eye still the same, no need change...

the female staff maths like everytime get distinction like tt...
no need calculator and she juz tell u how much the price...
after 10%, 20%, 30% discounts oso no problem...
smart like hell, or maybe she juz anyhow blurt out some nice numbers...
$110 gone off my bank account now...
1 down, 2 more to go...

i didnt get my harddisk from jc's recommendations...
i got it from another shop that is cheaper...
to keep it simple...
i lazy to go around shops and asking for price...
i dun wanna sound like some cheapo...
but no one wans to get cheated...
then i got 120gb from some small shop...
cheap by about $14 eh...
the rest of the shops all sell higher...
another $166 off my bank account...

on the day i wan to get cable...
pacnet extra introduce cable plans...
make me go down to their bugis junction outlet to check out...
the sales staff at seiyu all look at me and my swimming slippers...
making nice sounds on that squeaky clean floor...
pacnet price plans suck...
no difference if they got intro or not in the first place...

sitex was boring...
got lost trying to find starhub booth...
many all storm to xbox there...
free games for everyone...
but then all camp down there...
even men not interested in gers wearing bikinis...
that stupid printer company sure lose money...

7:03 AM

November 27, 2003 COLOURED.


finally went swimming after 2 weeks of rusting...
i neber felt so good before...
dun even have that asthmatic feeling again...
like my cough is a thing of the past...
too bad takumi is swimming faster and faster...
im still at the same level, like canot improve liao...
i would have stayed there overnight...
but cannot la, got mission to do...

my vision is getting blurry...
i thought i can wait until next year...
but my right eye veri pain...
now i try not to open my right eye liao...
have to make new lens and new frame tml...
unexpected expenditure...
lucky i still have some money...

swim finish go back eat...
eat finish go out to sim lim...
too long neber use my concession card...
must make full use of the free rides...
and i didnt know that my neighbourhood got 2 optics shops...
but their designs all like uncle uncle pattern...
who knows i may look more MAN in it...

actually go sim lim not go there to buy stuff...
juz go escalator, collect catalogs...
locate the shops, find starhub shops...
and then go back home...
boliao? i call it doing homework...
like how ppl do their homework when investing in shares...
like how students do homework to hand in on the next day...
like how jealous spouses do their homework by getting PIs...
more importantly, its my orientation trip...
first time i go there by myself...
and i only have $4 in my wallet...
and neber bring nets out...
so even my hand itchy oso canot buy now...

ppl who do homework will always come out tops...
explains why i didnt do so well in poly...
anyway i did my calculations on financial matters...
i wun be getting my ram after all...
sdram is so freaking expensive...
in the end i will get a new hdd and thats it for shopping...
thanks to my frens for the excellent advice...
most of my questions were idiot-based but they listened...

my left eyelid has been twitching for days now...
my left eye see ghost?
my left eyelid help massage my left eye? so loving...
my left eye trembling wif fear?
i tink its all due to lack of sleep...
i have been lying on bed for hours, without falling asleep...
always wide awake, i duno why...
i didnt nap in the afternoons...
my eyebags have obviously been punched...
maybe im excited...
about cable!

i cant get excited over cable...
its an insult to dialup...
having used dialup for so long...
i am supposed to be nostalgic abit...
and think back about the times we had...
the good times and the bad times...
all the wind wind rain rain we have weathered...
without dialup there would be no honggy...
without dialup this blog wouldnt exist at all...
ctrl alt del should stop looking down at dialup...
without dialup, connections wun evolved...
without dialup, i wouldnt have used napster and audiogalaxy...
lets give credit to where its due...
lets give it up for dialup!
give dialup lifetime achievement awards!
offer dialup honorary membership in ctrl alt del!
hmmm...
im still excited over cable!

first time i help a lady take off her necklace...
so excited... my mother...
sian la, so many first times given away to aunties...
i die liao la...

"you talk way too much" - hong

12:53 AM

November 25, 2003 COLOURED.


my premonition was correct...
everything went according to plan this morning...
juz as wat i have predicted...
i am disturbed from my sleep...
i can qualify to be a soothsayer now...

who knows i have supernatural abilities...
after some unknown illness...
the patient's DNA always start to mutate...
here are some of those mutants and how they evolve...

spider bite man = spiderman
bat bite man = batman
fly bite man = the fly
tick bite man = the tick
man stuck in superglue = superman

storm = old hag
wolverine = anti-mohawk
cyclops = wireless technology
beast = blue man group wannabe #1
nightcrawler = blue man group wannabe #2
mystique = blue man group wannabe #3
rogue = #1 sucker
jean grey = #1 bimbo
professor x = yunnam haircare model
magneto = F9 in physics
gambit = sore loser

none of these make sense dun they...
but how did the film-makers ever come up with those ideas...
i mean who wans to become a human-sized fly anyway...
and its more common to be bitten by mosquitoes or bees...
they can create HONEY MAN or AEDES MAN for realistic reasons...

after my illness, i did become a mutant...
i am now honggy, the supreme burping machine...
too bad the pills are taking effect...
i cant seem to burp as much as before...
which relegates me back to a normal person...
btw, i didnt take my schizo pills today...
so ppl around me better be careful...

given a chance i wanna be mystique...
not becos i am a blue man group wannabe...
its good to become someone else for a day...
like say i wanna be neo and suddenly im a gackt fan...
or become anomalic and im LMAO-ing away...
or become etoiles and suddenly pick up dancing...
or become uchu and all passerbys are like frens...
or become sano and im now the #1 bachelor...
or become takumi so that i will slow him down in swimming...
or become zero and those cosplayers are oh so going to fall in love...
or become chuance and ironing his neber-ending clothes...
or become toy and keep admiring my body...
best of all i can be BoA...
and i will keep saying honggy is my #1!!!
then i will infiltrate her dreams...
brainwashed her, she will wake up with no memory...
except the words honggy, honggy, honggy...

i tink im dumb...
or maybe im juz happy...

anyway i went to my grandmum's place for lunch...
i was the VIP for today...

everyone including my relatives were forced to eat porridge!
all becos i cant eat rice at all, my mother insisted on porridge...
all the rest have no say in it, not even my aunties or uncles...
luckily for them though, it was traditional teochew porridge...
so u have all sorts of dishes spread over the large table...
but i cant eat the curry chicken or spicy prawns...
next time i should decide wats on the menu eh...

for all the effort that my mother has put in...
i am very grateful for that...
i mean ppl around me are oreadi unhappy about the meals liao...
always porridge, porridge, porridge...
my father is always complaining why no rice...
but my mother stood firm...
and so its still porridge, porridge, porridge...

i think if my sister is sick...
she wouldnt have that kind of privileges i have...
maybe most would say its the old favoritism...
that parents always give in to their sons and not their daughters...
all about continuing the family line blah blah blah...

but i think its all bullshit nowadays la...
most prefer to have gers as they're more manageable...
more obedient, more guai guai, more gentle...
they wished to have boys but they know they cant handle them...
guys always give parents a lot of trouble they create outside...
lousy academic results, fights, smoking, drugs, ONS-ing...

some parents still forgive them for all their bad deeds...
but for me i see it in a different way...
my sister always complain of favoritism...
its juz that im more obedient than her yea...
i am one who can really stay at home 24/7...
without stepping out of the house at all...
maybe to buy newspapers in the afternoon...
and wats crazy is i dun feel bored at home...
i dun feel the urge to go out...
hmm i tink i make a good house-husband...
any career-minded women interested?

so i tink my parents wan to find fault wif me oso hard...
they say all i do is computer, tv, eat, sleep...
they are like trying to get me to go out and socialise...
fret not, its swimming season now...
wif gym out of the way, i can swim 5 days a week liao...
weight training i can use the 5 litre bottles of oil my mother bought...
so i can 4get abt toy and his raving about hydrocarb...
the results of enhancements are pretty fast i must say...
somemore takumi is free tml... hehe...
got competition = increased performance...
its crunch time baby!

"about time to set it off" - hong

5:41 PM

November 24, 2003 COLOURED.


saw the doctor today...
he said i was doing well...
better than the first time...
gave me some medicine...
to curb the inflammation...
and the burping disorder...

famotidine - gastritis
domperidone - stomach wind
prednisolone - inflammation
chlorpromazine - schizophrenia

there's no need to rub ur eyes...
im given pills for SCHIZOPHRENIA!
so all along i thought im the only sane person around...
when in fact im the one wif the mental disorder...

i thought wrong prescriptions...
i realli scared of the clinic assistants sia...
all look so unprofessional one...
chit chat among themselves so loud...
got 1 juz come back from her hair job loh...
then look so chio i thought patient sia...
normally u expect those ppl to look matronly...
oh ya abt my mental disorder...
it was to prevent my more than average belchings...
maybe i overdid it a little...
now my burping standard is thrice...
no more no less...
so whenever its less than 3 times...
i will purposely make it thrice...

asked permission for sport activities...

"wat kind of exercises?"
- "still got wat kind, night activities loh!"
- "youngsters nowadays do it every night u know"

i love to see him raise his eyebrows and go hmmm...
but no ppl will have sex when u are bloody sick...
its a strain staying up late for surfing loh...
pardon my lameness there for a moment...
u should, coz im doctor-certified schizophrenic...
so all those schizo-wannabes just stfu and stop complaining...
stop whining about how unfair life is for all of you...
u aint got no right to do that, only i do...

given the all clear for swimming...
still a big no-no for air-conditioned places...
which means no gym at all...
but it doesnt prevent me from getting the things i wan...
getting my hardware on thursday most prolly...
and set everything up by this weekend...

i sleep...
i feel my soul leaving my body...
i open my eyes...
i see my soul trying to get out...
i see my legs going up...
i close my eyes...
i sleep...
i open my eyes...
i stand upside down...
looking at my own soul-less body...
i close my eyes...
i open my eyes...
i am in my body now...
i cant move at all...
i close my eyes...
i sleep...
i open my eyes...
i regain my ability to move...

i never believed in out of body experiences...
wat happen today was too good to be true...
the same sequences replay over and over...
its like a dream within a dream within a dream within a dream...
have no explanation for it either...

im back to my 12-pills-a-day routine...
pink, white, brown, pink, white, mentos...
alternating between them...
i dun have 2 pink together or 2 white together...
i not racist, i give them equal priority...
the mentos must always be the last one...
maybe it will be struck off the list after tml...
that mentos is very dangerous...
specially designed mentos for schizos...
they didnt mentioned that we're supposed to chew...
so i duno got minty flavour or not...

i can predict the future...
i will be disturbed from my sleep tml...
and i will be utterly enraged...
and i will toss and turn out of frustation...
and i will let out a loud growl...
and i get out of my bed irritated...
and i will curse all the malays...

i dun have a grudge against malays...
but no one will be happy when u are disturbed from ur sleep...
esp. when its early in the morning...
and they blast their prayers thru the loudspeakers bloody loud...
i know ppl will say why i so insensitive...
but who ask them go and buy so good quality loudspeakers...
they listen can liao, wat for spread like government elections sia...
this incident occurs unluckily around my neighbourhood...
they should try blasting other neighbourhoods...
and see if anyone's complaining...
i juz wan my sleep back...

"u will be the death of me" - hong

11:05 PM

November 23, 2003 COLOURED.


to hiccup is bad...
to hiccup for hours is worse...
to hiccup for consecutive days is worst...

lightning doesnt strike twice...
it did strike twice on me alright...
everything was fine until i choke while drinking water...
how often do u choke on ur water anyway...
unless u're in a rush or too thirsty...
i wasnt in a rush or too thirsty in the first place...
yet it happened twice...
all becos i was burping while drinking...

i am becoming the burping machine...
although i can feel my stomach's nt so bloated...
im still burping almost every 10 minutes...

how to cure hiccups...
the stupid way is to drink more water...
they say it works everytime...
ya rite, onli makes it worse...
the logical way is to stop breathing...
but u must have sufficient training in holding ur breath...
the weird way is to take chopstick n bowl and knock them on ur head...
thats the dumbest thing i have ever seen ppl ever doing it...
that honour goes to my sister back in the old days...

when u are spoilt for choice...
wat will u choose...
tikam tikam or draw lots...
its worth trying out the options...
i realli tink its a waste of time though...

having no idea wat to do...
lying down on bed relax a bit to destress...
and viola! u stop ur hiccups...
told u tink too much is bad for health liao...
dun tink, juz relax relax then okie liao...
well it works for me on the both occasions...

anxious on my trip to the doctor tml...
he will assess my situation and c wat needs to be done...
i hope everything has cleared up...
actually i wan my cough to clear up...
the rest of the problems are secondary...
i can live with burping forever mate!

i tink my throat has lost its feeling...
numb numb numb, like dead like that...
after all i have been scalding it with hot water regularly...
i think i have to stay off many stuff for a month...
b4 i can fully recover...

i missed the spices...
i missed the soy sauce...
i missed the seasonings...
i missed big macs...
i missed whoopers...
i missed cold drinks...
i missed chicken...
i missed training the most...

living on a porridge diet for a week is strange...
i duno wat is happening to me...
but i think i have gotten bigger liao...
i thought im supposed to become like a POW...
with so many food i cannot eat...
and i seem to be... growing
so gers shouldnt eat so much porridge...
try some fast food, wun get fat that fast...

"apocalypse please" - hong

11:01 PM

November 22, 2003 COLOURED.


i have decided to get things done and over with...
its time to bring radical changes to my life now...
the death of one marks the birth of the great one...
a new chapter in my life beckons...

i tink im more or less almost free from the cough now...
try 6 straight days of minimise talking...
total torture, but i have oreadi resisted the urge to hum now...
at least it wasnt so bad for me, i dun tok much anyway...

my hair is getting longer n longer...
in the past my hair was always short...
crew cut for my whole primary school life...
einstein hair for lower sec...
armani for upper sec...
back then i even perfected the art of armani without using gel...
i never thought of growing the hair out at all...
3 months is always the maximum time limit i allow myself...
i cant stand it when the hair starts to mess ard wif my ears...
now it has oreadi grown over it...
fyp prevented me from cutting my hair...
the exams prevented me from cutting my hair...
and of cos the sickness prevented me from cutting my hair...
right now i think cable is going to prevent me from cutting my hair...

oh btw, im still pissed at my mother...
she saw something shiny from my head and snipped it off...
there goes yet another precious white strand of hair...
that one was bloody long and she took it off juz like that...
i still wan to dye my hair b4 i enter ns...
but then countless visits to doctors has got me thinking...
imagine getting prostate cancer at age of 20...
thats exactly wat happened to the doctor's fact file...
prostate cancer usually affects elderly men loh...

for the first time, i dismantled my pc...
im not a very hands-on person...
dread those hardware installation tests during year 1...
in school can anyhow pull out the device by hook or by crook...
at home its ur own pc and once something goes wrong...
u be crying ur ass out...
but i had to do it...
i said its time for major changes in my life yea...

getting cable most likely, most prolly...
took noticed of any spare slots i have...
i wanted to get additional harddisk and ram...
NIC wise will have to wait...
most prolly i stick wif the USB...
the motherboard stuck so hard...
its a mighty virgin that doesnt wan to be screwed...
might as well leave its chastity intact...
i thought my processor might be slow...
but i dun wan to spend so much right now...
i need to keep something for rainy days...
juz in case im kena confined in school for attachment...

and i didnt know that my computer desk at the back is so dusty...
the dust accumulates like lumps of curly hair drifting over the air...
like those desert scenes but think black donuts rolling...
cleaned up my room for the first time since a year?
not actually complete clean up either...
i was juz concentrating on my desk...
and theres still some dust around...
juz appeared abit more presentable...
cleared quite alot of junk i kept but never used...

i thought of getting aerosol can of air to clean my keyboard...
sick of blowing air to force all those small particles out...
those strands of hair, breadcrumbs, milo stains, saliva drools...

yesh i mopped the floor as well...
my room onli, not the whole house...
its like the 2nd time i have mopped the house...
ever since i moved in 2 1/2 years ago...
im not lazy la, blame it on the floor finishing...
my old house has all those standard square tiles...
very easy to see when its dirty n when its not...
now its like made of marble...
and u have difficulties locating stuff if u dropped something...
so dirty still looks clean to me...
too long never do household chores...
my back is aching like shit...
and i juz mopped for about half an hour onli...
its time for mass gyming and swimming sessions...

i wondered if my weight loss has anything to do wif my resolutions...
u know the one i have specified for myself for the start of this year...
its on my dec or jan archives anyway...
i said i was aiming for 60kg...
i shoot way past that target come july and i was oreadi on 64...
but now i think it has come down nicely to 60...
something i am obviously not happy wif...
i thought resolutions are aims that are hard to reach...
guess i have to set higher standards next time...
maybe aim for 75kg and join wrestling one day...

i was pretty scared when i boot up my pc after i have reassembled it back...
i thought i would be dead if i smell something burning or smoke billowing...
it started perfectly and absolutely nearly flawless...
nearly is the key word...
now my 3 1/2 floppy diskette drive light is always on...
and it cant read any diskettes at all liao...
thank goodness it was the useless diskette drive...
if it was my hdd or cdrom drive i will be crying liao...
lazy to plug out everything again...
next week then do it when i install things...

the sea-monkeys are well and alive...
i could only see 3 or 4 initially...
now the water is now flooded wif tiny maggots wriggling around...
u should have seen it under bright sunlight...
straight out from a horror movie scene like that...
they said it can grow up to 3/4 inches...
but i think they wun last up to the 2 years life expectancy...
most prolly the food supply will run out b4 they become 1 year olds...

sometimes i think its unfair...
down here sick and cant do anything...
rest of my frens are out playing...
some cant be bothered wif me at all...
its like im no longer useful...

yea, once ur usefulness has been used up...
ppl start to forget you...
ppl forget about all the things u used to do for them...
and all the fun and laughter shared during the wild times...
its like u are now strangers to them...
like never meet or talk before like that...

no wonder they love to say always look to the future...
wats past is history and shouldnt be dug up again...
its time to dump them and get new ones...
thats how life revolves right...

all the incidents and circumstances occuring throughout my 1 week...
i duno whether its enlightenment or beginning of depression...
one thing's for sure, ppl did rear their ugly heads alright...
all the twists and turns, i wish i dun know about it...
i hoped they wun provide a slight hint of anything fishy at all...
when they start to give blatant clues straight to ur face...
u juz cant help but get involved in it to help solve their problems...
while wondering since when my frens ended up being such losers...

but i dun like to be kept in the dark...
it sucks when everyone in the whole wide world knows...
and u're the only person whos still in dreamland...
and ppl sniggering behind ur back...
whispering, pointing fingers, laughing...
that wat an stupid big ass idiot u are...

so so so, i have made up my mind...
im going to make every person regret wat they did...
and do that sarcastic remark uchu always does...
"see, i told u, but NOO, u wouldn't listen"
i always love that line...
along wif the "i will kill u until u die"
oh my, i read too much psycho thrillers liao...

"no, im not ur puppet and no, i wun let u go" - hong

11:54 PM

November 20, 2003 COLOURED.


i tink i am always so suay 1...
other ppl always get to see wat they wanted to see...
by the time i try to see ar, all the action gone liao...
always like that 1...

they say if u keep thinking of a person...
then when u sleep u will dream of the person liao...
many of them can work but i cannot loh...
i think think think until morning oso no have the person appear...
think until black eyes oso dun have...

then all the good lobangs i everytime wasted...
i oso duno why...
hestitate too long then when i wan it...
oreadi no more liao...

anyway, i have changed my template...
if u wondering if the ger on the right is me...
good guess, bet u didnt know i am so chio rite...
oh juz come to ur senses...
the title of this page oreadi indicates im not a ger...
anyway mai kuraki will onli be gracing this page for a while...
she will keep me company which will speed up my recovery a little...
after all this is not my initial design...
supposed to add some purple to make it more gay...
but ended up being all grey and dull again...

i have been aggressively getting the wind out of my stomach...
i did the karma sutra...
i did the pills...
i did countless situps...
situps is good for constipation u know...
it always works for me...
and now my stomach feels better now...
left the bothersome itchy throat...

i have been watching television like never before...
i having been switching to channel newsasia quite often...
juz to have a glimpse of suzanne hung...
last time it was sharon tong...
and that foxy cheryl fox...
and my old time favorite lisa ang...
she is the ideal tai tai i wan!
forget about ratings...
u need nice-looking newscasters...
thats why evelyn is pulling in the ratings for channel u...
who needs those heavily-accented or professionals around...
exactly sounds like my lecturers like that...
dun understand a single word of wat they say at all...
try hiring models to report news...
at least prove that they are not bimbos or juz beefcakes for show...
who knows u may even see keanu doing the primetime news...

i have tried to be mute for most of the time now...
then this song is being played in my playlist...
L~Arc En Ciel - Anemone...
not exactly one of their more familiar songs...
but that song always get me wailing like a ghost wif lots of hatred...
and i couldnt stand it anymore...
soon i was doing Gorillaz's Clint Eastwood as well...

ppl can check out Korn's Right Now vid on urbanchaosvideos...
i was watching it after i have juz finished my dinner...
pretty glad that i didnt vomit anything out...

Do I care anymore - if there's a new beginning
The simple plan is broken
Every time it's given
I needed thrust and love but grab the hand of hate
To help me up again
To fuck me up again
Sevendust - Disease

"there's no hell beneath our feet, only heaven above our heads" - hong

12:00 PM

November 19, 2003 COLOURED.


its pretty bad to have a bloated stomach full of air...
i felt like those african countries' kids...
cant eat, cant sleep, cant excercise...
that farting medicine onli farts a little...
provide a little relief but still not sufficient...
i do know of some way to get the air out without medication...
but its too obscene to be described here...
think some karma sutra position n u know wat i mean...
i accidentally discovered it when i was young...
inspired by a book somewhere...
about a guy imitating ostriches...
keeping his head underground and using his anus to breathe...
so i boliao go and test out...
and i managed to get some air out from my ass...
now to force a huge amount of air is realli asking too much...
somemore it takes a lot of patience to clear the path...
when its clear, u juz know it, becos u can feel sth like lao hong like that...
like balloon slowing losing air then u can feel the cool breeze...
dun say that im gross, this is educational stuff...
one day u will do it too i tell u...
and i wouldnt wan to be caught in the position when my mother checks on me...
"AH HONG AR, WAT ARE U DOING!"
erm, getting ready for my first time?
i can onli practise at night and when no one's around...

i forgotten to mention since i wun be outdoors for 1 week...
i wun be updating my friendster until next week...
so those ppl requesting or waiting for approvals of testimonials have to wait...
actually im the one who's doing the requesting...
so far i onli got 1 person who requested to be my fren...
and i am pretty grateful for that, thank you...
i will remember u forever seriously...
so plan B has to be postponed for the moment...
oh yea, i still tink friendster sucks...

if a country so small like singapore can have up to 5 accounts...
wat about the other countries, hundreds or thousands...
somemore got all sorts of funny institutions joining friendster...
no wonder the service is so lag...

the country n schools testimonials realli suck...
singing national anthems n pledges...
tok about hoe much they love the country or school...
i dun see them singing the anthem or school song in school...
sure u always hear them sing as one...
and the one is the principal...
the rest were suddenly mute for 5 minutes...
got chance to sing dun wan sing...
limited chance to sing die die wan to sing...
those 50,000 ppl at the national stadium on NDP is the classic example...

shit, i cant listen to music...
i always hum to the tune without realising it...
then my throat starts to get itchy n the process repeats...
so now i have to keep away from my pc...

so while im at home wif nothing to do...
im in the progress of writing testimonials for most of them...
but more or less the same as wat i wrote for my first impressions...
ive prepared the water to breed sea-monkeys...
and busy crapping wif C� yesterday...

ppl who swim got stiff butt
i seriously beg to differ...
im a example who oreadi destroyed the myth...
ppl onli have stiff butts when they train in the toilet...
ppl who go pai sai at least thrice a day one sure stiff butt...
ppl like me who can dun do big business for 1 week u know my butt quality liao loh...

i lost so much weight that i didnt realise i was wearing my shirt the other way round...
i tink i have hit below the 60 zone liao...
i cant swallow rice, onli can porridge and noodles...
i hope it gets better, it better be...

didnt realised that theres actually a gay beach in singapore...
those fridae members must be so glad to have their own place...
there should be a lesbian beach around here somewhere...
then i will go and make them turn straight...
then the gers will make the gays turn straight...
we are all doing community service...
who knows we will be awarded plaques on national day...

"i wun be there, why should i?" - hong

2:57 PM

November 18, 2003 COLOURED.


on a serious note...
this post shouldnt be up so early...
it was supposed to be published around a week later?
after all i was all ready to be admitted to the hospital...
to spend my time on the hospital bed breathing the CLEAN air...
have nurses to look after my every needs...
bathe me, feed me, touch me, care for me...
i was hoping for some nurse interns from nyp...
i dun wan some auntie auntie, they're very rough...
i was prepared to write my blog at the hospital...
at one time i was ready for my last words...
seriously i thought i am neber going to recover at all...

BUT it didnt happen...

wat is wrong wif me:
coughing for 3-4 months...
recently i had flu...
caught cold...
fever twice...
difficulty breathing...
difficulty swallowing food...
feeling nauseous every time...
vomitted once...
laosai every morning...
stomach always feel empty...
yet couldnt eat a single thing...
bloated stomach...
continuous belching...
loss of appetite...
loss of weight...
unusual tiredness...
insomnia...
sweating at night...

remember wat i said abt i feel okie but something is still not right?
the above things i have experienced in juz a short period of time...
is exactly wat i mean by something is still not right...
honestly if i didnt tell any people i have been coughing...
they would have thought i was all well and ready for anything...
but no one knows my body better than i do...

the last straw:
i finished my antibiotics on sunday...
i was happy and almost ready to resume training...
then i was singing coldplay songs happily then tragedy struck...
coughing profusely yet again...
i couldnt finish my lunch at all...
the next test was to place myself in some airconditioned room...
so i was in school publishing blogs and some researching...
i couldnt stand the dryness and i was feeling veri miserable there...
headed home and realised i was feeling hot...
being such a hot man, u dun expect me to feel cold...
told my sister about the situation...
of cos not abt me being hot la...
i would have been kicked out in the sexiest person contest in the first round...
all of them bloody took drugs...
so i follow suit, i took drugs as well...
popped 2 panadols and off to bed...
but i cant sleep at all loh...

the person who cares about me the most:
in my family i have a father, mother, sister...
and i think the answer is pretty obvious...
otherwise they wouldnt have this song abt her...
"in this world onli mama good, other ppl bad"
the moment she came home from work and realised i was in my bed...
she started to get all panicky...
i told her i may have some serious illness...
she thought so too and started to call my uncle...
she wanted to get me to hospital...
my uncle suggested going to the 24 hr clinic in CCK first...

look who's talking now
i said that i neber understand why ppl tink too much...
always worrying about something over nothing...
u guys may be saying now im the one who think too much...
but seriously u dun know wat i have been through...
my medical history has been almost flawless...
save for the occasional fever annually...
and ever since i have that cough...
all sort of funny ailments start to appear...

Tuberculosis
Acute Bronchitis (spell)
Chronic Cough

take ur pick and see which one i have...
maybe the most serious 1 is tuberculosis...
and i have all the symptoms of TB as well...
TB requires 6 to 9 months of medication...
i cant afford the cost even if i sell my pigu...
no reputation for pigu selling, can onli $10 per pax...

i am as stubborn as my father when it comes to visiting the doctor...
we always self medicate first and dun like to see doctor...
but when u see i am going to the doctor 5 times in less than 2 months...
u know im genuninely worried...

the visit
went to a different doctor...
since the time then was oreadi 9:45pm...
being my first visit, he asked a series of questions...
a lot of which my previous doctors didnt ask at all...
i admire those doctors, having to remember so many things...
for different illness wat questions to ask blah blah...
i showed him my previous medication...
he look at my throat...
he said it was pretty dry...
then he got me to lie down on the bed...
and started to feel my stomach...
pressing around like finding g-spot like that...
he even lowered my pants...
doctors realli can be so horny...
afterwards he start to tap my stomach like tapping drums...
maybe he wan to check whether my six pecs are made of silicon or stuff...
but now i juz have a flat stomach, long time never do crunches liao...
i need etoiles for some motivation first...
then he used his metallic thing to feel me...
i got very excited by the cold touch...
NO his lil brother was not metallic...
the instrument... wat u call that ar...
oh stethoscope, yea that metallic thing...
its a very strange sensation...
something like wat amelie poulain experienced...
amelie felt loved, i felt shioked? watever
he began to press press my throat here and there...

his assessment
he say my long term coughing may or may not be serious...
it all depends on the situation...
it helps that i dun have a smoking history or ppl ard me who smoked...
hmm, ppl around me do smoke, i dun hang around wif them much onli...
so uchu, zero, weili, ys, anomalic and the rest whom i still duno got smoke 1...
better stop ur freaking smoking b4 ur beloved #1 crapper becomes an angel soon...
he said my problem is with my throat and not wif my lungs...
my mother keep asking if i swim too much will affect or not...
the doctor said swimming onli makes the lungs become stronger...
provided u realli swim like me la...
most list swimming as hobby but then neber swim at all...
juz go the suntan then swim a few laps like that...
my mother oso say i go gym too much...
then carry too much weight, causing my condition...
the doctor of cos laughed it off...
n the problem wid my throat is its pretty unstable...
he told me to restrict using my voice...
and no airconditioned rooms...

the shock
the doctor specify the reasons why my stomach is so full of air...
why i laosai every morning...
why i belch every time...
it was the antibiotic which my previous doctor gave me...
erythromycin is actually causing all these side effects...
and guess wat, my mother was right abt the asthma pills...
ventolin is used to treat asthmatic ppl...
side effects include trembling of body...

the medicine





Domperidonestomach wind, vomitting, abdominal distension
Loperamidetreatment of diarohhea
Dexmethasometreatment of inflammatory conditions
Clarithromygin(Klacid)antibiotics
Phenexpect Cough Syrup50ml
Preonisolone Syrup40ml
Tussil (DMP)cough lozenges(dry n persistent cough)


bet u didnt know that the 90ml of cough syrup was mixed...
but i hate cough syrup, it always gets me coughing...
u can make my doctor visit to 6 in 2 months...
i have to return next monday for to check my condition...
and im placed under house arrest for 1 whole week...

i love his prescriptions honestly...
the domperidone is supposed to get rid of excess air in my stomach rite...
guess wat, half an hour after i have swallowed it, i farted...
and my stomach felt so shiok...
but then still got a lot of air to clear...
i need to learn some farting techniques...

loperamide more shiok...
juz this morning my bowels were rock solid!
perfect piece of cake i have made there...
even jamie oliver would have been proud of me...

but my stomach still has some air in it...
at least i can eat a little now...
throat wise i realli dun know...
dexmethasome for the inflammatory i hope it works...
i know it takes days b4 i can see some effect...
but i oso have to try to use my voice less...
stop humming to songs, stop talking...
stop talking is simple, i neber talk...
but i hum way too much...

okie maybe u want me to spare u from all this medical terms and stuff...
u may be thinking why the hell im writing about my personal condition...
well i thought ppl will be concerned and wanna see how im doing...
so i decided to give my well-wishers some words that im fine...
and not to worry abt me much, provided if i have any well-wishers that is...

hey i have prepared something for those who are not interested in my health...
u see how good a person i am?
sacrificing my rest and so much juz to keep on publishing...
someone ought to write a biography of my life...
u think wats so great about writing while u're sick rite...
try taking 12 pills daily...
my body is overfilled wif poison i tell u...
i oreadi got phobia of swallowing them liao...
many times i got difficulties gulping them down...
last time was easy, this time u have to eat 12 pills is realli sickening...
anyway on to other stuff than my personal health...

people have been always following those wif reputation...
the clothes, the computer parts, the music, the doctors, lawyers blah blah...
i went to see the previous doctor mainly becos of its so-called reputation...
u have to wait 1 long hour b4 its ur turn to go in...
obviously u know how pissed i am when im given drugs that worsen my condition...

how do those people or brands gain their reputation in the first place?
so u may be new to the business but u have a winning formula...
yet ppl shun u becos u have no reputation...
then those wif reputation all set insane price rates...
their products or service isnt that great at all...
yet they have customers flocking to them...
new start-ups need people's support...
who knows they may be even better than those established ones...

becos of my recent experience of going to so many clinics...
i think reputation doesnt count at all...
the CCK 24hr clinic i visited was fast...
after the 3rd person it was my turn to go in...
and the doctor asked many questions...
something which i think other doctors dun do...

each doctor has their way of examining their patient...
when they use the stethoscope on u (im getting high again)
either they strip ur clothes...
pull up shirt or unbutton...
or juz examining wif ur clothes on...
yea, my first doctor did that...
i always wonder how does he feel anything wif my clothes on...

maybe he's afraid of the patient accusing him of molest...
but my 3rd doctor sure isnt afraid, he's daring...
he onli pull down my shorts at the most...
but thats becos my mother n uncle were inside the room...
otherwise i think he wanna pull my underwear as well...
which reminds me of something when i was young...
i dreamt of being a doctor becos i can press that stethoscope on ppl's bodies...
i love to see their reactions LOL
i mean for me i always get something like electric shock like that...
i wonder how others will react, shiver or shout or scream...
oh no, i tink i have a fetish wif that metallic thing...

sometimes u realli have to question the professionalism of doctors...
esp those surgeons cutting ur body to pieces for some operation...
u wouldnt let someone who havent done an operation yet to start on u...
yet if they dun start, how can they ever gain experience...
so maybe the rich hired those that are old hands...
poor ppl no money to pay one will have to settle for interns???

and im always curious about how they do their job...
u are unconsious and duno a single thing until u wake up...
dun those tv shows always have scenes where the surgeons like to chit chat...
drool at the patient's body, take photos, getting touchy...
and usually becos they talk too much...
they tend to drop some souvenirs inside ur body b4 stitching...
like some scissors, some needles, and other stuff...

maybe they should allow the patient's family to watch the operation...
behind some glass panels so they can monitor the surgeon...
i know some will vomit at the gross scenes...
but its better than having needles stuck in ur body...
and suffering for many years without knowing the reason...

"we live in a beautiful world" - hong

3:23 PM

November 16, 2003 COLOURED.


i tink i am a younger version of edwin yeo...
every thoughts of his is exactly the same as mine...
most of the time he wrote crap...
which is wat im doing for my blog...
everything on his column doesnt make sense...
and most of the time he is trying to act cute...
i am oso trying to act cute, wif my act cute nick...
which explains the thing that we have in common...
attracting the readers and trying to draw some response from them...
be it compliments or criticisms, u know u have scored big time...
the onli difference between us is we support different soccer clubs...

cant get to sleep these few days...
obviously im not very tired...
first week of training schedule oreadi disrupted 3 times...
1 was for matrix movie, 2 for strictly indoors...
i realli duno wat to comment on my illness...
i seem to be ok, but something is still not right...
im able to stop coughing for 1 whole day...
then the next day it came back again...
on the 2nd day of medication, i had difficulties breathing...
the same kind of breathing i do when im swimming...
but im not underwater or anything, this shouldnt happen at all...
my breathing onli got better after i stopped taking one of them...
my mother said she took the pills last time to treat her asthma...

have been gurgling saltwater when it gets too itchy...
initially i didnt know i was supposed to juz gurgle...
i drank the whole thing n it certainly was an unpleasant feeling...
nobody told me that the correct way was to spit it out...
all they said was juz use saltwater...
at least im smart, the water i swallowed had little salt in it...
tell me to drink 2 tablespoonfuls of salt is nitemare...

dpm lee shouldnt be made the next pm of singapore...
has anyone ever hear him laugh?
if u closed ur eyes n listened, u would have thought it was agent smith...
dpm lee has a very sinister evil laughter...
and it doesnt spell good for our future...
soon the virus will take over the human and machine worlds...
we need to find the one fast...
one that prefers sweets to viagra...
of cos none of the men is as stupid as...
MR ANDERSON (agent smith's voice)
the men prefer to stand up for singapore...

my sister's ex-colleague actually named his kids hsien loong n hsien yang...
no prizes for guessing the ex-colleague's surname...
aint it funny to have a soon to be PM and a singtel CEO as ur sons...
i tink i will name my son kuan yew...
then i can proudly proclaim my son made singapore an independent country...
provided i have kids in the first place of cos...
thinking back, my parents told me something b4...
i was so nearly going to become bruce lee...
when they thought i couldnt live up to its name...
so they changed it to francis...
they can actually predict the future...
so wat if im a person into sports...
i suck terribly at martial arts...
i duno how to flip, duno how to kick properly...
in short, i didnt take up any lessons...
the name francis means a free man...
how true, i am so free, not tied down by anything, nothing bothers me...
but it oso means that i will most prolly be free for the rest of my life...
which depicts i will remain a bachelor n old virgin...

back in the old days...
being a leftie means u're god...
"WAH u left-handed ar, must be very smart"
i was blinded by the compliments...
which explains why i never study hard enough...
i thought juz flip flip a bit can liao la...
wif my bit of genius and a bit of flip flip sure no problem...
but ppl all grow up to know friends are ur worst enemies...
they try to console u, try to bootlick u, try to make u feel good...
in actual fact, u need to face up to reality...
if u keep listening to their bullshit...
juz stay in ur dreamland forever manz...

4 years ago, my sister was crying over her O results...
she had done well enuf to get to JC...
too bad her english D7 then cannot go in...
she was like crying for days???

wats the point of crying other than cleaning ur eyes...
the examinations was like over 4 months ago liao...
so u jolly well know how good or how bad u fare...
anyway she went to poly and got to university...
no difference from jc to university route...
there, another situation appears...

she was afraid her SAT score wasnt enuf to earn a place...
and keep praying that she get selected...
results came out n great she was selected...
but now she's actually thinking of giving up...
too much things to study and very hard to catch up...

dun she remember she was dying to get to university in the first place?
then now want to give up juz like that...
u have to know for all the hardships u have endured...
theres simply no more turning back...
u juz have to adapt to the harsh situations...
to turn back simply means going back to square one...
and going thru all the messy business yet again...

juz remember that friends are waiting to see ur downfall...
and dun believe any of the bullshit they try to sell u...
its juz their own opinions and u dun have to follow it...
oh, i getting out of point, supposed to say about lefties...

forgotten abt topic of lefties?
scroll above to refresh ur memories...
they said lefties are born talented...
especially in the arts...
for me, i suck in drawing...
i always failed my shading...
i think i have some talent in music...
but i didnt pursue it at all...
literature? forget abt it...
fail this subject every semester...
except for my last semester when teacher put 50%...
but i think i have a talent in writing...
not some cheemo english...
im pretty talented in writing crap...
seriously, im good in it...
i mean my blog is usually longer than anybody's...
cos they cant crap as much as me :)

being left means u're god...
they didnt know the disadvantages of being god...
many things are made to cater for the righties...
the SP carona stall that stupid ladle...
onli right-handers can use it correctly...
lefties have to tilt it the other way...
cars in singapore are right-hand drives...
computer mouse always placed on the right side...
for me i have adapted to the mouse...
my fren always swapped positions and mouse clicks...
guitars are meant for righties only...
they do have guitars for lefties...
but it feels weird...
explains why i never pursue music...
writing on transparencies is the worst thing...
the ink will always be smudged as u move ur left hand...

the most important thing about a leftie is...
u are god becos u always sacrifice first...
a study has found out that lefties die 2 years younger than their peers...
no wonder not many are left-handed...
not everyone can be god okay...

that ah hong on channel u is realli destroying my reputation...
he is so freaking ah gua that i juz cant stand it...
same goes to fei yu qing...
both unbelievably ah guas that gers like so much...
but that ah hong can cook very well...
nowadays gers cant cook, so they prefer ah hong...
fei yu qing has a insane voice...
went for some surgery to prevent his voice from breaking issit...
those aunties like him becos they dun have his girly voice...
these 2 girl magnets are dangerous creatures...
the public may not know but they are so evil...
pretending to score wif gers while doing something in the back...
its a conspiracy, big time conspiracy that needs to be exposed...

watch some rugby for a definition of a REAL man...
broken bones, fractured bones, dislocated joints...
to them its like a piece of cake...
sometimes i realli wonder if they're really human or not...
england players are known for their notorious diet...
look at their players...
so many well over 100kg and sporting beer bellies...
their squad is the heaviest among all the other nations...
and i dun c any muscles in their squad at all...
they were lucky to get into the final...
i thought france was going to upset...
too bad their kicker today super off form...
otherwise france would have wrapped up the match by halftime...

i like to watch a lot of sports...
most of them i dun understand the rules...
like this rugby and cricket...
cricket i only know u have to hit the ball far far away...
aussie rules is another very interesting sport...
its like soccer, basketball, rugby all rolled into 1...
and the ppl playing are not that big sized...
but there are sports that are boring...
baseball, american football, golf makes me sick...
golf is a very sleep-inducing show...
i always wonder why do ppl stay up so late...
juz to watch tiger woods swing his club...
its a quiet atmosphere out there...
unlike in stadiums where u can curse all u wan...
and the commentary was even worse...
old n fat ppl playing golf isnt very attractive...
gers playing golf all wear pants...
where are the skirts, be more feminine leh...
ppl suffering from insomnia realli ought to watch golf...

i said friendster is lame...
i oso mentioned that i will use it knowing its lame...
so here i am using it and cursing it at the same time...
im curious as to wat makes this whole concept tick...
and wat attracts ppl all over the world...
when a product is being spread around like wildfire...
u know there must be something like a secret formula...
very few online communities networking can be so successful...

is it the competition to see who has more friends?
is it the surprise when u discovered ur current fren actually knows ur old mates?
is it the thrill of adding pretty or handsome strangers to ur list?
is it the satisfaction u get from reading ur very own testimonials?
is it the shock factor when u managed to find a long lost fren?

its juz a simple add fren write testimonial thing...
n so many ppl are hooked like u neber c ur frens b4...
or u duno ur fren's opinions of u...
u mean ur fren neber tell u straight face to face about u izit...
still must rely on their testimonials online to figure out...
and testimonial is a very big word to use...
testimonials usually mean bad stuff...
u know, they can say ur bad qualities become like good qualities...
look at ur leaving school certificate n u know...
no matter how bad u r in school...
how many times u have skipped lessons...
how many times u have long hair...
how many times u have been caught smoking...
how many times not wearing canvas shoes...
it all doesnt matter at all...
the testimonial always make u look like an angel...
so when ppl write testimonials for u...
usually u have to twist the words around...
then u know the true meaning...

something like that tennis advertisment...
u know abt the kid, parent, and trainer...
it was obvious the kid's skills suck...
yet the trainer said the words that the parent wanna hear...
"he hold his racket like agassi"
"one day he maybe no. 1"
see the word 'maybe' on it?
he didnt use 'will be'...
which means the kid may or may not be no. 1...
so the trainer said some nice words...
but the words are not wrong at all...
same thing about testimonials...
its a big conspiracy, big time conspiracy...

anyway if there are insufficient sponsors...
most likely u can say bye bye to friendster...
right now its oreadi so bloody lag...
they need to upgrade to a faster server soon...
if they dun take any action...
myspace will soon become the new leader...
recommended to me by bryant...
its faster over there, given few members...
but i lazy to join, veri freaky if u have to manage so many things...

"posse is gd, too bad im not in it" - hong

10:53 PM

November 15, 2003 COLOURED.


the medicine is corroding my brains...
my head has never felt so empty b4...
and i still dun see any improvement at all...
okay maybe a slight one...
2nd and 3rd day of medication shall see better results...
i certainly hope so...

pretty interesting to see how the law works...
i didnt know that oral sex is actually illegal...
oral sex alone is illegal...
if it leads to sexual intercourse, then its legal...
very the unfair...
say they are in a rush n have no time for sex...
then will they get caught for that?

it can oso be used as a threat...
now that u have had oral sex wif me...
we must continue with the love making...
or else i shall see u in court!

ever hated someone n wished he was in jail?
this is the best chance to do that...

apparently if the ger does it, the guy goes to jail...
if the guy dun wan but the ger die die wan then how...
the guy so innocent yet kena put behind bars juz becos he allows her...
wat if the guy does it to a ger...
the ger goes to jail?

there have been numerous surveys...
about gers complaining sg guys are boring in bed...
someone reasoned that we are law-abiding citizens...
yea, everyone's afraid of breaking the law...

but its no secret that everyone is doing it...
juz like ppl go out buy pirated vcds dvds...
juz like underage smoking and entry to clubbing...
juz like downloading every available licensed software...
every single person walking down the road...
they have all committed crimes...

"go go go jail~" - hong

11:30 PM

November 14, 2003 COLOURED.


bryant go gym wif me today...
he like 6 months never step inside liao...
then he even more jialat than me...
he can only take the lighter ones...
my 2.4 on the treadmill oso sucks...
13:45, this timing how to pass...
after the running i veri shagged liao...
nearly wan to vomit...
do chest lagi worse...
since tuesday until now still haben recover...
then i itchy hand c no ppl use then i go do...
pain like hell lanz...
i wan to stop, but if do halfway then stop veri xia suay...
so i die die must finish...
working thru pain has its benefits...
force the body to quickly adapt...
then next time will be super power...
then the cycling i extra add many levels...
cycle until my buttocks cramp nia...

gym always got those big sized fit fit guys...
then u happy happy admire them, wonder how they do it...
all got take supplements one...
and toy is following them liao...
he duno take wat supplements...
1 for faster shaping of body...
1 for more protein...

i dun c why they wan to take supplements leh...
its more like for lazy ppl taking short cuts...
unless u realli need it...
its a waste of money...
then u dun get that sense of satisfaction...

i mean i m happy wif my results so far...
but now i lost weight, going 4kg liao...
if i dun stop the rot, i will go below 60 le...
however i dun even think of taking mass gainer...
i juz wait to recover from my cough completely...
then i start stuffing on meat liao...

ppl who take supplements are juz like gers putting on makeup...
i dun realli like the idea of gers putting on makeup at all...
unless they're into goth or appearances on tv then okie la...
oreadi pretty liao still wan to add so much powder for wat...
let the guy kiss all the powder and die of poisoning...
so evil the gers i tell u...
i know makeup can like make the person transform to another person...
u know the appearance looks different with makeup on...
but u dun expect to sleep next to a person who looks like a stranger...
they dun put on makeup when they go to sleep...
but then u oreadi so used to the powdery face...
then c the clean face u dun recognize her animore...
wat to do, ask her to have makeup on 24/7 bahz...

oh ya abt my cough...
i went to c the doctor again...
4th time in less than 2 months?
he told me to better take care...
cos he dun expect someone to cough for so long...
he even showed me some confidential info of another patient...
he was from ngee ann poly and had the same problem as me...
he doctorhopped over 10 doctors before he came to nam seng...
the doctor referred him to the NUH for a checkup...
and the letter he showed me was the results of tat checkup...
he had duno wat cancer and he was onli 20 years old loh...
the doctor said becos the color dye in his hair is inside his blood...
so he told me better dun dye hair, dun smoke...

can u imagine having cancer at 20...
life is short, so dun keep fucking abt life sucks k...
this time im taking no chances liao...
im oreadi trying very hard to sleep early...
i oreadi off cool drinks...
no more lime, pepper or other stuff that is irritating...
no fast food, eating at home for every meal liao...
i wan to get rid of my cough permanently...
i juz hope i dun get some big shot illness...

theres some action finally in my friendster...
sano n jack have included me...
my plan is going smoothly juz like a hacker...
find ppl who have many frens n are online often...
then i juz add frens off them...
i lazy to find all the email addresses one by one...
in security terms, it is called DDOS attack?
watever la, i oreadi forget what i have learnt liao...

my mother has put me under house arrest...
she doesnt allow me to go swimming...
i wanted to protest...
but the effects of the medicine is very powerful...
old medicine cant make me sleep...
this one is an instant KO...
so even if i wanted to swim...
i wouldnt be able to swim properly...
might as well stay home sleep n play some games...

"life is short" - hong

2:31 PM

November 13, 2003 COLOURED.


my sleeping time has been cut short to 5 hours...
i tried sleeping early...
and i woke up early, way too early...
the kind of time where the cock is still sleeping...
there i was at 4am unable to sleep...
if only my mother can stop making veggie juices at 7am...
it has become a routine that is taking its effect on me...
the juicemaker bloody loud...
i feel like i am some prisoner going thru torture...
purposely make loud noises to deprive someone of sleep...
then soon he will start to hallucinate and turn crazy...
take a look at my eyebags n u'll c...

not only that, i felt the aching of my body...
only when u sleep then the aching starts...
as usual im forced to sleep face up...
no turning of sides or tortoise style...
but like that hard to sleep leh...
i dun sleep face up...
unless im very tired...
usually its the tortoise style...
plus a bit of fantasy role play then im KO...

there was a new email for me abt attachment...
so that sgi more or less reject liao...
now got this atotech company...
this morning called me up at abt 9am exactly...
my mother picked up the call since i was taking a dump...
when i come out she ask me my fren duno chinese 1 izit...
how can the person tok all english neber tok chinese 1...
i thought sano call or sth...
but he cant be calling me so early for no reason 1...
later the person called again...
thank god its a male voice...
if its female i would have shiver with fright...
he sounds sincere enuf...
like those who are willing to teach interns 1...
convo ended quite well...
we agreed on some terms and he sounded please...
he said he will tok to my lecturer about it...

i think thats it, im going over there for my internship...
no interviews required, no hassles...
better than that SGI, damn waste my taxi fare...
if hire me then nvm la...
but go there wasted trip sia...
still spend so much time on streetdirectory for nothing...
and i dun like that crazy guy...
i forgot his name, dun bother to remember suckers' names...
he choose candidates like choose meat like that...
hey, im the sirloin steak okie...
dun pick me then u wan to pick minced meat meh...

okie, i admit im not realli that good or capable...
but im not those who realli sucks at practicals...
some can do it straight away...
some can neber do it after multiple explanations...
i am something like in between...
not that smart to know everything at once...
but not that dumb to keep asking for help...

praying hard that im going there...
so wat if its tuas...
got transport pick-up points...
and it has some kind of reputation as well...
yet another company who has offices all over the world...
and best of all, its related to my course of study...
keeping my fingers crossed...
and hopefully i get an email soon...

siemens looking for call sales staff...
u get to pick up telemarketing skills...
changi airport oso looking for sales staff...
most preferably gers to attract the tourists...
oh they dun know guys can make the female tourists drop to their knees?
like nice jobs like that...
but we are studying computer networking...
if i intern at some retail company...
then i might as well take marketing as my course...

but the pay seems tempting for those non-related jobs...
jimmy's fren currently working at golden village...
dun worry, he is not taking any media related course...
his job scope: sell pop corn, collect ticket stubs...
$600 per month...
piracy is obviously not doing its job...
how can cinemas earn so much to pay a useless person $600...
it juz show that piracy is not a threat to movie sales...
keep on downloading!

watching matrix revolutions on imax today...
order of the day: even is in, odd is not...
when we have coupons that is 1 for 1...
die die must have even number of ppl then worth it...
guess wat, jonathan was sick today and he wun come...
which left us with toy, bryant, chiobu, jimmy n i...
5 persons, 1 is going to foot the original price then...
should have called anomalic along...
after all, she has a high chance of watching it for free...
jimmy was thinking about asking some female stranger...
got free movie wanna watch?
not some candid camera stunt leh...
but in the end he got his brother to come down...

his paikia brother...
his dressing...
his way of walking...
his accessories...
i like his silver rod hanging on his left ear...
the hole much bigger than my cotton-budded holes...
maybe i should find some nice metal rod as well...
then i juz customize my hole nicely to fit it...
oh and one thing...
he hold things like he is holding a knife like that...
ppl wun dare to mess with him...
but hes younger than us...
and he friendly friendly with us...

i think we were duped...
we thought the show will be in 3D...
after all IMAX gives u the impression of 3D...
wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong...
IMAX means u only have a much bigger screen than all the cinemas...
u onli get 3D images when the movie has the words '3D' on it...
which the matrix revolutions doesnt have of cos...
but big screen indicates a bigger keanu reaves for the gers...
and bigger monica belluci for the guys...
i personally tink normal screens wun show that cleavage so clearly :P

as usual i dun understand the movie...
as wif all the 3 matrix movies...
maybe the first 1 is the most easiest to intepret...
the rest u need to think alot...
something which i hate...
i mean u oreadi tink alot in school liao rite...
then wanna relax relax c movie still must tink some more...

fans are saying its the best sci-fi series ever...
i dun realli tink much of it...
when the first movie started showing, ppl were raving...
not about the storyline of cos...
amazed by the effects that they have never seen before...
then it started to spawn copycats...
now so many are using the slow-mo effect...
u can credit the matrix as the breakthru movie...
but if the movie doesnt tell a story...
wat difference does it make between a porn movie n matrix...

sure the matrix has a storyline...
human trapped in machine world
human fights machine world for not allowing freedom
corrupt machine was created accidentally
corrupt machine aims to take over both worlds
human n machine combine to battle against corrupt machine
end of story...
dun worry, no spoilers around...
unless u haben watch the previous 2 shows...

but porn movie oso has a storyline as well...
man delivers parcel
man see recipient in sexy clothes
man buay tahan
man tears woman's clothes like werewolf
man rapes woman
woman resist for a moment
for no reason woman suddenly likes being raped
kiss the man like he's her husband or bf
next day they're at it again
end of story...
u know they have one thing in common...
both movies dun make sense at all...

the matrix tries to explain wat ppl are eager to know...
but it onli gives very very vague answers...
u may think that i am juz dumb to understand the story...
but i think moviegoers watch it juz for the sake of watching the effects...
anyway, i have watched some forums debating...
trying to intepret the real meaning...
at least they help clear my mind about certain things...
make sense or doesnt make sense it is not important...
they give specific answers...
not like the oracle who keeps crapping abt choices...

one spoiler i wun mind telling u about is the oracle...
when ppl go n watch the revolutions...
notice the way she smoke...
seasoned smokers will realise that she's a POWERFUL smoker...
she can tarik veri long!
she breathe in right, then like neber exhale the smoke out like that!
it happened about 4 or 5 times leh...
its like her lungs have absorbed the smoke?
or the smoke all go to her smoky hair?

we could have been spared from the so-called cheemology talk...
when the ppl in matrix speak, audience will go wah so profound...
when obviously the oracle is uttering crap...
it is the same if she talk or she dun talk at all...
neo should have taken that viagra pill...
he could have become such a powerful man-whore...
even deuce bigalow will be impressed with him...
but no, he doesnt like to entertain the gers...
he is so selfish, he choose to take the red one...
he indulges in his dark secret... red M&Ms...
which incidentally is called the truth...
u eat it, u learn that u actually like sweets...

n u think plugging n unplugging from the matrix is cool?
so many wires around, so messy, neber put cables properly 1...
wat if ppl accidentally tripped on the wires...
the tripped will have a bump on his face...
the tripper will suffer an electic shock...
they are so outdated, ppl are going wireless...
they dun plug n unplug anymore loh...

and if u r reading this...
i m currently in the process of color changing...
nah i wun change my template...
i love my template too much...
i juz nd to change the colors...
coz black doesnt bring out the life...
and with the kind of stuff im writing...
it has become more like black humour...
i will change it to a very gay color soon :P

"all ur belief cannot absolve ur sin" - hong

2:28 PM

November 12, 2003 COLOURED.


announcer: next match is for the world heavyweight title

(music of sexy boy starts playing)

introducing the man from singapore...
weighing in at 164 pounds...
honggy~

and his opponent...

(music of that stupid song starts playing)

weighing in at 295 pounds...
the defending champion brock lesnar~...

(brock does the little jig)

SIAN!

weigh myself today and realised i have lost 3kg...
super sucks, if i ard 63 or 64 still neber mind la...
but 61 is way off expectations!...
i think i wan to gain weight oso got problem liao...
lost my appetite since that cough...
neber able to stuff food like i used to...
then somemore keep excercising...
wan to gain weight got big problem...

weight still never mind la...
but i didnt know i was that weak...
i reduced all the weights and i struggle to do the sets sia...
super super slackening of body...
i think tml my whole body will ache like hell liao...

the sports pages in tnp feature quite a lot of adverts...
a lot all hotlines for soccer odds & handicaps...
if chatlines or those handphone ringtones stuff still alright...
the soccer ads like blatant bookie advertising...
like that the authorities neber go catch catch 1...

even though chatlines are more like sex lines...
at least they come cheap...
the soccer hotlines range from $2.88/min to $238 per call...
i neber typo, its $238...
the most expensive phonecall ever...
if the small kids in the house like to play wif phone...
pray hard for ur phone bill manz...

i find it funny...
bookies are like operating so openly...
and the police are not doing anything...
go to any coffeeshop during match days...
u c all the ppl down there call their bookies to place bets...
maybe the police is doing the catch big fish tactic...

like that quite waste of time...
might as well catch all the small fishies...
then left wif few small fishies onli...
the big fish will feel hungry and go out...
then police can catch big fish for makan liao...
u c i so clever right...
police stupid duno how to tink...

always kill the small things...
cos it will affect the big ones...
its a slow process, but guarantee to work...
better than u spend a whole lifetime trying to sake out big fish...
and got no results to show for...

i wish RIAA oso stupid like that la...
catch those big big ones can liao...
minor ones like us they dun bother to catch...
like that best, hope they have no brains!

friendster veri buggy...
at first i wan to report bugs one...
but i decide against it...
becos i put my new last name as 'frenster sucks'...
initially i put first name as ah then last is hong...
then like that send invitation looks nicer...
ah hong would like to be ur fren blah blah...
but then if ppl search for my mail...
wat they c is my name as Ah...
hu the hell does ppl have Ah as a name...
somemore irritating...
u can onli do ur profile once...
and that is during registration stages...
the edit profile thing right bluff ppl 1...
i try to include some interests oso cannot...
keep giving me the previous settings...
the description lagi worse...
repeat so many times until sian diao...
then u know i cancel my account...
i can actually cancel it more than once...
and i still can log in wif no problems...
how sucky can it get?

nah, actually the whole thing is very laggy...
like i said, its wasnt built for a large community...
the database took quite a while b4 it is updated...
in the end i got a new account...
then lazy to add ppl again...
back to square one...

deposit $50 to my account today...
small amount i know...
but i have to curb the amount of cash on my hands...
the less i have, the better...
surprised to find that i still have some money left...
i thought i will be bankrupt after the next semester...
turns out i have sufficient to get my connection...

oh ya, i downloaded wild things screenplay...
saw the movie last night n dun understand all the twists...
bo bian, have to lower volume at night...
all the confusing stuff was explained during the credits...
short scenes that the audience didnt c explains it all...
then i realised tv cut quite a lot of scenes leh...

"hold the S becos i am a Aint" - hong

10:42 AM

November 11, 2003 COLOURED.


maybe there are bigger things than blogging...
thats y ppl are not updating anymore...
but if u dun say ur problems...
how the fuck m i suppose to know...
u cant expect me to know everything...
when u juz clam up and dun spit it out...
sounds like me...
but at least i still crap...

i lag in thinking...
whenever ppl say something...
i can onli tink of a suitable solution...
by that time, problem oreadi solved...
wait for me to help is like waiting to die...

so many ppl have written to the ST forum...
questioning the deaths of the NS ppl...
mostly came from those concerned parents...

parents, forever a hindrance...
got ppl there to teach their boys how to be man...
ppl there make the boys realise that home is the best...
ppl there make the boys to be more responsible...
and no more immature behavior or fooling around...
yet they still complain that ns life is too hard for their precious babies...
and wish it can slack a bit...

er, this is national service...
they train u to be a solider...
in times of war, u have to go out n fight...
surely u dun expect the enemy to slack abit...
like tell them to put water abit or bargain...
wats the use of having ns when it becomes more of a resort...

parents pamper their kids too much nowadays...
esp those rich brats who look so sickening pale...
those who die die must have aircon 1...

the fact states that ppl have died while serving ns...
a hidden fact which ppl didnt know is that we are weaklings...
everyone knows ns life is much tougher in the earlier days...
no have this no have that, no have everything
the training roughly around the same as now or even worse...
but no one complain at all...
now ns food got so many varieties...
even though the food still suck la...
but in the early days how come no ppl die leh...
they got eat eternity pills izzit...

npcc also like that...
my batch all kena pumped throughout the 4 years...
then when we wan to punish juniors also canot give them pushups...
the most can give 20 onli...
somemore need to write letter of explanation...
teacher-in-charge says if she has a son in uniform group...
she oso dun expect her boy to be punished by pushups...
wat is that suppose to mean...
my batch n earlier batches all are born orphans or wat...
since sec 2 onwards, every single week...
when they tell us to knock it down...
who cares abt pathetic 20...
they happy happy tell u down 50 without batting an eyelid...

it was even worse in sec 4...
i was appointed sec 2 field trainer...
once i told them to stay back...
i got something to tell them...
then 1 parent c how come his kid haben come out of school...
he fuck go n find the teacher in charge...
then the teacher in charge saw me n my sec 2 squad down there...
lanjiao i was not even punishing them...
i was asking them to fill out some particulars...
then teacher demanded to see me...
and he told my squad to pack up n go home...

went to a room, closed the door, shut the windows...
then he did the closed door hanky-panky with me...
honglin was there wif me as well...
but onli i was given the punishment...
nabei kena 50...
no explanation given...
i so dulan i lan lan give him his damn 50...
then purposely shout very loud...
i always like that 1 when kena punished for no reason...
then he humji tell me no nd shout so loud...
told me to count in my head can liao...
honglin down there act cute sia...
he dare not complain becos he dun wan to do...
the teacher damn funny leh...
he onli wan to know why i kept my squad back after my punishment...
can like that 1 meh...
then next time i juz pump my squad happy happy...
then finish i juz say i dun like ur dickface...

the teacher could c that i oreadi pissed liao...
he tried to calm me down and talk some sense to me...
it helps that honglin was present...
god knows wat will happen to that teacher that day...

later i came out of that room feeling a bit better...
my squad is still waiting for me in the canteen...
i think they sensed something wrong...
then ask me wat happened...
i juz cooked up some stupid story...
at least they still feel a bit guilty...
that i was punished becos of one of the damn parents...

maybe it was that day...
that day when i start to despise weaklings...
all they can do is go home cry in their mothers arms...
but it didnt spark a reaction from me...
to get strong, to be fitter than any of my peers...
it didnt happen then, but it happened now...

if ppl same age as me...
can pull 20 over pullups...
can run 2.4 in less than 9 mins...
i dun c why i cant do it as well...
currently i still cant la...
take things slowly one at a time...
u dun expect a cripple to walk overnight...

did i mention my rebirth nearly ended in disaster?
bad start right from the beginning...
by the time i reached the pool...
bryant oreadi at the bus stop there waiting to go home liao...
he stay there onli for 1 1/2 hours...
usually i min 2 hours then happy happy come out...
too long neber use my googles liao...
washed with soap once but still very blur...
then my hair is bloody irritating...
all i can c is hair n blurred googles...
like that how to swim properly...
paused for a while after my 11th...
i cannot continue at all...
my stomach is churning...
rest for a while then go wash my googles again...
other than takumi, there is another source of motivation...
thankfully woodlands is never short of gers...
otherwise this will be a wasted trip...
somehow i managed to get my engine started...
beginning to get the feeling back liao...

thought of going borders...
but my eyes were stinging from the excess oil...
spent the longest time inside the shower loh...
hard time getting the oil off my body...
my face realli canoot take the sun...
my body neber turns red but my face does...
i oreadi put protection liao but its the same thing...
sucks, burnt as usual...

so u think u know everything
can u believe that shit then
want something to pass the time
never wanted to cross the line
one step changes everything

"a day can change so many things" - hong

2:30 PM

November 10, 2003 COLOURED.


i have a big problem n in need of help...
but im not complaining...
so the rest can quit whining and stfu k...
there will always be ppl who are worse off than u...

i juz realised i missed out on another old belief...
i used to think my gf will be 2yrs younger than me...
that is when i have one la...
maybe i was influenced...
my mother was 2 yrs younger than my father...
my grandmother was 2 yrs younger than my grandfather...
i reckon its in the genes for me...
of cos its a different story now...
they are older than me...
ask me to tink of anyone younger...
i cant tink of a single one...
only BoA is younger than me though...
drooled over an auntie once u know...
she reminds me of someone veri close...

dun u wish u wun ever have to come out of ur shell...
sometimes its better not to know so much...
and juz believe in those naive stuff...
reading the papers bring back memories...
now i remember some of the things that i've forgotten to post...
so expect something interesting over the next few days...
then this blog is more of a blog instead of a diary...
more personal views over events...
instead of personal activities...
and i think ppl wun be interested to see wat i m doing...
gym swim gym swim gym swim...
unless u're a fan of stalking...

i cant wait for tml...
the day where i will be reborn...
i oreadi set my schedule liao...

monday aggressive swimming...
tuesday gym conc on chest
wednesday moderate swimming...
thursday gym conc on legs...
friday light swimming...
saturday gym misc...
sunday is lazing day...

then on swimming days i will go borders...
on gym days will go school download n c comics...
but if i got activity on any of the day...
then borders n school will be cancelled...
u c i plan so nice rite...
but first week oreadi got disruptions liao...
wednesday go c matrix no time to swim liao...

this time i will be more serious...
but i have to condition myself first...
now weak like jelly...
like that how to win the guy with tattoos...
like that how to have head small body big...

if i have a choice...
i hope that ppl around me are all big sized ppl...
then like that i more motivated...
when u have ppl pixie-sized ard u...
very hard to get motivation leh...
thank goodness channel 5 has rugby world cup...
see liao then got motivation...
wwe oreadi offer me no kick liao...
after they have tt zach gowen...
who is lighter than me...

i also have to try eating 4 meals daily liao...
i think i now ard 61 or 62...
have to rush back to my previous 65kg high...
then hope to hit 70 by end of this year...

those rugby players realli play a big part...
construction workers used to be the ones that im looking at...
now rugby ppl are way bigger n stronger than them manz...
they kena stepped on like not pain like that...
in soccer u try to kick a player auto red card...
in rugby when u ruck n maul no foul leh...
i c them trying to drag the opposition player out with their stamping...
somemore they kena stamped on they neber complain...
they big sized but still can run fast sia...
kena tugged jersey, 2 3 players holding them back...
absolute sheer power, i am very impressed...
i oso wan to be a rugby player!

tried touch rugby b4 during my leadership camp in sec 3...
first time playing the feeling veri weird...
then always accidentally foul...
becos we are so used to running forward when we have the ball...
by right we can onli pass backwards...
onli this sport extra must pass backwards...
but i like the rush of it...
the running, the trickery, veri shiok...
but i auto disqualified to play rugby...
their height average 1.9m...
their shortest player still 1.75m...

i train until i get their upper body can liao...
then run like hell to get fat n juicy thighs...
and eat enuf to fill up my knee caps...
my kneecaps both veri vulnerable...
must need some protection liao...

bryant is going swimming wif me tml...
most likely he will stop after 5 laps...
neber see him swim b4...
n i dun think he can swim much...
which means i will be his force of motivation...
and i have no inspiration...

gym more sian...
toy is going on odd weekdays...
i going on even weekdays...
which means i going alone now liao...
then quite hard to push myself to the limits...
becos no one to help me support the heavier weights...
at least im going to cck gym, nearer...
no need go chinese garden so far...

"i c a human side of u, and tats gd" - hong

12:17 AM

November 09, 2003 COLOURED.


i will never gamble
i will go to jc
i will go to university
i will have 4 kids
i will drive a car
boybands rule
i will grow up to be a typewriter
soccer is a boring sport
japanese animation is for ppl who neber grow up
japanese hentai is lame
going down south is the most sickening thing
having a gang to protect u is cool
being beng is nice
i feel like i own the school at pri 6
i feel like i own the school at sec 4
i will join ncc
i will never make it in npcc
i will slack in ns
gym is for sissies
suntanning is for act cuties
i will only learn swimming in ns
i am castrated
i will chew my nails for life
i will continue to pluck hair from my head
chair-rocking is the in-thing
pointing middle fingers to people is cool
miaoling is the one
PAP is the best
gays are sick
lesbos are sick

all the stuff above are my beliefs in the past

what i think or doing right now:

i gamble a lil bit...
stopped believing in jc in sec 4...
university? never crossed my mind anymore...
4 kids? i hate kids...
why 4? becos they make good company for playing monopoly...
i dun like board games with 2 ppl playing only...
not interested in learning driving...
wat for get license when u have no car...
boybands suck totally...

"i will grow up to be a typewriter"
FACT: living thing cannot be changed to a non-living thing

soccer used to be boring...
i slept during matches...
all that changed when Man United came into my life...

dun c the fuss with japanese anime...
until i saw one myself...
now im hooked...

why see cartoon porn when u can see real porn...
ANSWER: cartoon porn displays wat u will never get to see in real porn...

its much cooler to have gangs scared of a single person

primary 6 was cool...
u are bigger than the rest...
then promote to sec 1 suddenly feel inferior liao...
same thing applies to that sec 4 feeling...

i didnt join ncc, who ask it to be ncc(air)
other schools all green uniform onli scss 1 is blue...
nearly became a boys brigade cadet...
and so nearly became a paikia with that squad...
ended up having a dark blue uniform, npcc...

to make it big in npcc, u have to use ur voice...
shout here shout there...

SEE THAT TREE OVER THERE, KISS THE TREE AND COME BACK
SEE THAT BLOCK OVER THERE, TOUCH IT AND COME BACK
SEE THAT GIRL OVER THERE, GET HER NUMBER AND COME BACK
SEE THAT OFFICER OVER THERE? TIMER!!! WAT ARE U WAITING FOR

PUMPING POSTION DOWN
KNOCK IT DOWN
DROP 50
ON UR BUTTS DOWN (pushup situp lagi best)
ON UR FEET UP
SQUEEZE
SPREAD
FALL IN
ROLL CALL
ATTENDANCE TAKING
WATCH YOUR FRONT
WHERES UR POSTURE
STOMACH IN CHEST OUT

and other lame stuff...
shout loudly is different from screeching...
always had some difficulties shouting loudly...
but when promotion test approaches...
the voice juz seem to come alive...

after all the suffering in npcc...
i wish i wun have to go thru it again...
thats y i hope to get slack posting during ns...
that all changed though...
someone once said u work as clerk nice la...
but then u neber experience some exciting things...
those that u can go brag to frens...
it didnt make sense then...
but it make sense now...
otherwise why will i bother to train...

ppl start going to gym in their sec sch days...
i thought it was the lamest thing to do...
i couldnt see any significant results from them at all...

started gym on a active basis at the start of this year...
and all i can say is this gym thing really works...
provided u have to put in effort and have discipline...
usually fit fit ppl have nothing to do...
when u're busy, u're juz too lazy to go gym...
i know manz, i neber go for abt 2 months liao...

my swimming techniques are forever wrong...
attended lessons b4...
those lousy types teach freestyle...
i still remember the steps but its useless...
i still duno how to swim properly...
my mother always say die die must know...
otherwise go ns duno how to swim will xia suay 1...
now i learnt breaststroke thanks to some luck...
if it wasnt to that ger...
i would still be playing wif water at the 1m pool...
see gers can swim then i cant even swim is very xia suay...
thats y i spent my whole june holidays at the pool that year...

since young i have always chew on my nails...
sometimes chew until bleed then pain...
i juz cant seem to stop...
the most they will be left untouched for a week...
then my mouth will get itchy again...
who knows, maybe the itchy butt is not caused by the worms...
but by the nails that i have swallowed...

u should have seen me in pri 4...
i have a bald patch on the front side of my head that year...
i get a kick out of pulling hair from my head...

the nail biting and hair plucking times are oreadi long gone...
it goes to show how bored i am in primary school...
its bored playing board games with a person...
sometimes im playing it myself with my own imaginary frens...
now u know why i wan 4 kids then...

middle fingers are some sort of a greeting during that time...
it was quite popular towards my pri 6 and lower sec years...
the strangers all viewed us as rude...
watever, they wun understand how we feel at that time...
to us, its juz a finger, i can point my toe at u if u wan...

having secret admired someone for 10 years...
i thought maybe she will appreciate that...
but idiot la, neber tell her how she know i like her...
anyway, its the worst kept secret...
since pri 5, my class all know about it...
after we were posted to different schools...
lost trace of her liao...
wan me to admire her now oso got difficulty...
long forgotten her looks n voice...

PAP provided education...
opposition parties dun...
so why my father is always anti-government...
but now i think they're not that good after all...
they're going overboard abt getting singaporeans to be creative...
now they are creating something out of nothing...
and say that they are helping the poor citizens...
u know wat i mean...
if u dun, then u nd history lessons...

gays n lesbians are er xin, esp gays...
but they were there for a special reason...
thats wat my thai colleagues told me...
when i was working at golden mile complex after my Os that time...
go figure wat the reason is all about...
guys are meant to make lesbians straight...
gers are meant to make gays straight...

some stuff listed above were left out for this portion...
as they were quite x-rated...
or most likely too private...
u wan to know so much for wat...
i dun see ppl indulging in any secrets loh...
and many other stuff that i forgot to list...
becos my memory is failing me...
and i have been deprived of quality sleep for days...

while we're living, the dreams we have as children they fade away

u wun admit that u love me
and so u always tell me
perhaps perhaps perhaps

mei you se me jiao yong yuan
mei you ai zhen de bu bian
zhi ji chang guo zhi ji cai liao jie
len nuan liu guo de zi wei

nothing is forever
theres no love that wun change
ownself go through then understand
that taste of coldness and warmth
(loosely translated)

shi jie bian hua zhen de tai kuai
ni bu ming bai hui bei tao tai
gai lai jiu lai shun qi zhi ran
mian zi pao kai yi qi yao bai

the world's changing too fast
dun catch up will lag behind
wat is coming will come, take it easy
throw face away, lets rock
(veri veri loosely translated)

sorri ar, shin is coming...
but i not going to their concert...
so i help promote their songs abit...

those are some lines from songs...
to help u understand wat im trying to say...
skip those love parts...
blame the lyrics...

MORAL OF THE STORY

dun u tink that all the things we believe...
when we were kids, when u fren me, i fren u...
are totally different from what they are now...
no wonder elderly always say
the best time of their life is when they were kids...

nothing is forever...
wat i believe now will be different in future...
so right now u can whine abt depression...
but i wun be surprised if u ended up in marriage...
and having kids...
then tink abt how silly u were back then...
or maybe still remain single and embracing life...

wat if ppl's mindsets wun change...
wun we be living in the stone age...
or life still goes on as usual...
perhaps perhaps perhaps...

knowledge is a scary thing...
u at first thought north is north...
then u read more...
exposed to more information...
more propaganda, more influence...
now they tell u north is actually south...
who do u believe?

u suffer from premature ejaculation...
if u come in under a minute...
under 5 minutes...
under 15 minutes...
or even b4 penetration...
all these standards are taken from books...
and based on wat i know so far...
so many findings...
which one is more accurate...
the most logical answer i have seen so far...
u come b4 u reach orgasm...
most ppl agree on that...
and think this is the confirmed guaranteed definition...

come to think again...
u have reached orgasm n u have shot some liquid...
but ur opposite may not reached orgasm at that point...
and they will accuse u of premature ejaculation...

solli if u find it dirty or why i so pervert...
but thats a example i can come up of currently...
and becos i got do some research, then i can justify my words mah...
otherwise i crap then no research, ppl wun believe me...
and becos it will pull in ratings mah...
anyway i give u a milder example...

1% of the population thinks the tiger belongs to cat family...
99% of the population thinks the tiger belongs to dog family...
so if given a choice...
who will u believe...
of cos common sense tell u tiger belongs to cat family...
but then u see how come 1% only...
then u start to get suspicuous...
and began to scratch ur head wondering wat the answer is...
most likely u end up saying tiger belongs to dog family...
after all 99% of the population agrees with you...
the majority cant be that stupid wat...
and u happy happy follow majority in thinking tiger is dog...

thats the problem with the situation right now...
mass propaganda makes u believe things that arnt realli right sometimes...
actually this tiger-cat-dog theory that i have come up with...
is associable with many things in life...
u juz have to be amazed with the amount of brainwashing...
US trying to prove war is the solution...
Afghanistan n Iraq trying to gain sympathy from ppl ard the world...
why do US citizens sympathize them when they were the ones who started 911...
the reasons? endless...

this thing like psychology...
the more u psycho, the more ppl u will bluff...
but sometimes u may be psychoing the actualy facts la...

which brings us to the matrix movie...
the matrix is very much like real life...
who knows it is the machines who wrote programs...
to let saddam n osama on the loose...
plant programs to give ppl their beliefs...
i dun see why humans should fight for freedom...
machines created them...
and humans are living their lifes...
and they dun sense anything wrong at all...
they are still happy about it...
u defeat the machines...
wat good is there to gain...
ur so-called freedom?
gain freedom yea, n then u duno wat to do next...
cos theres nothing left for u to do...
the machines are dead...
unable to write programs for u to play with ppl...
for u to irc, chat, download, watch tv...

thats all for the cheemology la...
i took way too long to complete this post...
anyway i haben watch the matrix revolutions yet...
will be watching it this wednesday...
at IMAX theatres...
u know, the 3D theatre...
i got discount coupons for IMAX...
so might as well take advantage of it...

"know wat i wan n u will not regret it" - hong

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